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Sunday, August 29, 2010

some things in the internet are better not to be seen? i actually stumbled across an abandoned profile of someone whom i used to love? is that how i can put it now? ugh, it's 6am in the morning, i'm just out of my mind right now.

sigh, i guess at some point, stuff are better left undone and unsaid. sigh.... good night singapura, happy fasting.....

green green green:)
at 6:10 am

Sunday, August 22, 2010

daze and dazed.

green green green:)
at 8:10 pm

Thursday, August 19, 2010

this might sound very pessimistic as it is, but i'm no better than anyone.

a long lost meet up with my secondary school mates just now and i think that i was out of position just now. i wasn't myself like i used to be, i'm just not there anymore. but it all went good, it was nice meeting them after a long break. :)

i'm still in search of high and low for jobs. basically somewhat familiar to what my working industry is right now. remember for that interview i got called up for? it was a technician job. not that i have anything against it, i have the qualifications and all to work hands on. but what disappoints me was the pay. i was expecting much higher, if not i would have worked part time else where. so job hunting goes on till whenever. i do hope to get a full time job soon to cover my expenses and of course my mother and the household. everything's gotta start with difficulties, if not when would i ever be?

green green green:)
at 1:25 am

Monday, August 16, 2010

there must be somewhere i could bury my thoughts away. there must be something i could do to let all pass me. there must be something that can be done for all of these right?

i wish work would start soon, i have pulled myself from sorts of tests that had went wrong and i don't know if something good always comes out of it. it once made me thought that everything would be alright by then after i was happy and contented with what i have. eventually, that everything faded away.

ohh! i just got a call, and i have an interview tomorrow. we shall see how that goes tomorrow then. i shall prep myself up, shave my face clean coz i seriously look like an awful stoned-age man. haha, ok.. exaggerating. i just look like how a pure bummer should be! lovin' it!

green green green:)
at 4:18 pm

Sunday, August 15, 2010

i'm on a panic mode till i get a full time job! the emails i took down on the net apparently it's not in use anymore! FUCK!

green green green:)
at 1:29 pm

Friday, August 13, 2010

the sky was covered up like a blanket of stars everywhere! it was a clear sky night. i am back working at the night safari till whenever. hahaha i am still looking for a full time job which i have yet got one!

my sleep timings has change since i ord, i need to somehow tune myself back to after 1130, it's to the bed!

i am feeling very restless and thoughful these few days. i keep thinking how is my life going to growing older, my ambitions, school. and little parts of you still lingers around me, just so you know. sigh...

green green green:)
at 1:29 am

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

i have done this every ramadhan! and i will keep doing it till this blog shuts.

to all my family and muslim friends,

Selamat Berpuasa! :)

green green green:)
at 1:26 am

Sunday, August 08, 2010

and i got my pink ic back 2 days ago!

let's see how the transition is...

green green green:)
at 10:52 am

Tuesday, August 03, 2010

a few more days to go and until then, i will be operationally ready date! it has been quite a journey. i have learnt new things. meeting new people, doing police work and all, honestly i have no regrets. if i had not chose a school to start next year, i would have probably signed on as a police officer. hopefully as an soc trooper. hahaha.

i love the job, i love the riot drill, i love my troopmates. just only one flaw that i hate whenever i'm doing qrt duties. all in all, it was an experience.

lately i'm quite stressed up the fact that looking for jobs are really difficult to find. especially the ones you think that will fit you. and times like these, it all makes it harder to find. i really need an income right now, not only for me, but i guess it's for the household and my mother. it all starts now, everything gets harder, the road gets more bumpy then it is right now. this is where more challenges and obstacles are bound to happen. and i know that it will definitely be an impact on me.

one thing is for sure, i will make sure that i will seal the deal to be PE teacher someday. i will enjoy life after what i have done. i will make sure my family, my mother will enjoy it. i will make that for sure! i have to. if this is the long route that i have taken, then i shall finish it. Allah please guide me.

green green green:)
at 9:20 pm