i dun think i can sleep la!!
force force force..
must welcome myself to the nana land
and dream of all those castles, king
horses, beautiful princess, step mother
rabbit. greenday, ehh.. nonsense..
okok enough talking shit
must welcome myself to the nana land
goodnight!
green green green:)
at 11:51 pm
He's No Longer
Force Vomit
I, sit watching you go
Singing your goodbyes
While the big screen shows
While we top the pops
You took your flight
A smile and a wave goodbye
I try, pleasure in loss
Now I'm on my own
I can't stay for sure
I won't see the end
So I'll try not
To look, guess I'm okay now
Goodbye my friends
Now the train has come
Now this song is done
Won't you sing along
Goodbye my friends
Now the train has come
Now this song is done
Won't you sing along
I try, pleasure in loss
Now I'm on my own
I can't stay for sure
I won't see the end
So I'll try not
To look, guess I'm okay now
Goodbye my friends
Now the train has come
Now this song is done
Won't you sing along
Goodbye my friends
Now the train has come
Now this song is done
Won't you sing along
green green green:)
at 11:14 pm
Friday, August 27, 2004
woke up with a fever just now, my throat damn itchy.. and so i'm stuck at home. didn't go to school.. guess tomorrow both founders day and gig cancelled. cannot come.. anyway i was surfing pure-rock.net and they had new songs up. can download them. listen to How About Enough by A Vacant Affair.
green green green:)
at 11:13 am
Thursday, August 26, 2004
Wake Up
Cesspit
i finally got to listen to them. nice music. my friend was talking about the band that one of them from our school, and that guy plays hockey. i've seen him quite a few times, we play in the same team only that he's plays all the games while i sit my ass on the bench waiting for people to tire off themselves. wahhahaa. okok.. i think he plays for jansenites, saw him in some premier matches. don't know whether that's the fellar or not la..
ok so still stuck whether go to for the gig or founders day, my mother told me to go but i haven't reply the invitation card yet. hahhaa.. so don't know still can go or not.. i don't where to go la.. GIG OR FOUNDERS DAY?
i had my first phase test for surface grinding. wah damn tiring man the roughing cut. still havent finish. lucky next week boleh continue if not hancur.. gone.. alamak!.. and i've still not catch up with my weekly report.. dieeeeeeeeeee laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
green green green:)
at 9:41 pm
Monday, August 23, 2004
what my mother said just now really made me feel damn bad. really really touched me..
Mak selalu ingatkan anak, tapi anak tak ingatkan mak
it means, a mother always cares for their children, but the children don't really care about their mother. come to think about it, i'm a lucky ass here. she always irons my school uniform, washes my clothes, fold them also. and i don't think i feel really grateful about it. where can you get a mother like mine? i feel damn damn bad.
i've received the letter from my secondary about the founders day. i'm supposed to go there to collect for first in malay and E.O.A. i should feel happy about it since i never got anything first academically. anyway, i think i have to go, but i cannot find a white shirt. so i still don't know.. my mother told me to go, that means i don't think i'll be heading down to cgs or the NUS gig unless it finished early then i might get to watch 20 dischanger. i am still dying to buy their album. i still wanna get it. i think their one of the local power bands. aprt from the others like forcevomit, fishtank, pug jelly, plain sunset and others.
there's no school tomorrow but i have to finish up the project. i hope we'll get it done as soon as possible. also there's training tomorrow, a friendly match against the bakerites. since all the others are busy with school and tests, i guess i'll be the only junior there. stupid little me promised mr malik that i'm going thinking that kaanthan and benji would come along. but they got tests the whole of this week. i don't know.. maybe i might just won't go. oh well.. i am still feeling damn bad. hai..
green green green:)
at 9:59 pm
Friday, August 20, 2004
B Is For Brutus
- The Hives
i love that song man. the hives' new album very hyper! power! haha i've managed to download all the songs since i have no money to buy the cd. wahahaha.. only planning to buy american idiot. oh ooh! upcoming gig at crescent girls'.. got quite alot of band playing, 20 dischanger is one of them, then got this band called mistaken pirates.. one of the band members from my school.. okok.. it's on the 28th. oh ya.. then got another gig at NUS 20 dischanger playing again, not sure which part of NUS. SO... 28TH AUGUST.. IF I CALL YOU ALL ALONG.. BE FREEEEEE!
finally reaching to the end of the week.. a tiring one also.. practical is the same as everytime. I HATE TO MEASURE IN MICRON. you know, you feel giddy looking at the machine moves from left to right non stop. and the workpiece is cutting in microns! feel like pulling my hair and shooooooooooooooooooout! damn irritating la..i wonder why the year 2 managed to survive grinding. this is just surface grinding. not yet cylindrical.. if cylindrical, lagi worse. the table has to be set parallel before cutting the workpiece or it'll be tapered. that one much more HEADACHE.. HEADACHE HEADACHE! ok.. maybe i'm overreacting ah.... but it's true..
ok so upcoming gig on 28th both at crescent girls' and NUS. looking forward to it.. anyone want to go? tell me.. tell me!!! i really looking forward to it. wahahahhahahaa!
green green green:)
at 9:04 pm
Thursday, August 19, 2004
ok.. more pics are uploaded under The Curiousity. this is M. Johan signing off, adios. tmr practical..... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh then after school rush back got religious class.. ahhhhhh. goodnight!
green green green:)
at 12:15 am
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
you know everytime when you're near the mrt station or shopping centre, someone just might pop out showing you that donation coupon. it's really scary. damn irritating also. when u said you don't want to donate, they'll block your way and said.. it's only $2. argh! you want you donate ah.. hahaha.. i always avoid them.. if they manage to ask me for donation i feel like running away.. wahahahahaaha!
green green green:)
at 10:30 pm
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
when u got so much things in your head, and it's messing up your mind, u feel like shouting non stop until you got no more voice. things are quite messed up for me. my school, hockey, friends, not forgetting my family. but then again i guess i think too much. oh well. trying to forget the nonsense. i should have went for hockey training instead of staying home. then i won't have anything to think about. our project will finish up soon. as long as i do my own and mind my own business.. nono.. not me.. HIM! everytime.. ok maybe not everytime but most of the time.. you have a group work to do and just someone in your group is just so irritating.. best part, he's not even the team leader. i hate those kind of fuckers. they make people lives miserable. i complain so much about other people and not myself....
tomorrow school from 9.30am till 3.30pm. auto-cad. all the way then got engineering drawing. wednesday's the best! you feel so relacs. it's all the way air-con. boleh relac satu corner sua.............. but auto-cad quite hard la.. if you forget one of the commands in the program, your drawing also gone just like that.. sometimes there's no undo also. wahahahahhaaa eh sialah.. now cannot see my template title.....
green green green:)
at 9:20 pm
Monday, August 16, 2004
there is no school tomorrow but we have to finish our our project about the drug abuse! FUCK LA FUCK LA FUCK LA FUCK LA! we have people inside the group who is so enthu about it. i'm so pissed with him. tomorrow is for me, for us to rest, enjoy!not do some project! fucker! stupid la. got weekends for what? actually to rest also ah but ahh fuck la. i have no interest in doing it not because i find the project sucks but just that one particular fellar. ahh fuck him! HOPEFULLY WE CAN FINISH IT BY TOMORROW! I DON'T WANT TO DO PROJECT HERE PROJECT THERE. PROJECT MY ASS!
school was alright. no more Mr Kwek fuckface. ok la.. that was bad. hmm still.. anyway he got transferred to ITE Clementi. i wonder what is he going to teach there. down there got no engineering course. oh well.. he's gone now i have a new theory teacher. Mr Annuar is a nice guy but he always damn stressed up. but he's a good teacher. almost everyone respect him ah. practical teacher also change. we'll see how it goes on thursday.
i just realised that i'm so weak now. i tried doing push ups yesterday and i was struggling.. i managed to do 5 only! WHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAA! best best. go NS surely hancur one. did sit ups for napfa and i did 53 la. not bad. so all stations managed to pass. still got sit and reach and 2.4km. i'm looking forward to that one. i hope this time i manage to break my record ah. i reach 9 mins i happy already. wah but my arms damn weak la. 5 push ups.. pathetic seh. must work must train. must ahhhh! see i got so much to achieve and i think i barely managed to achieve some. dunno ah maybe got.. but oh well.
was talking to kaanthan on msn and suddenly we were talking about how we usually conquer almost the whole canteen ah.. apart from the rugby gay idiots.. whoops! okok.. our hockey people damn good la. we don't cut queue lines while buying makcik's food, we sit and talk cock like nobody's business, we talk until recess over also continue. then prefect would surround the whole table asking why we late.. and we say people always cut queue from the malay stall. and we will still eat and eat and eat. hahaha.. my favourite would be the vibrating bench. wahahahahhahhahaha! that one cannot forget la. kaanthan still thinks that it was somebody's handphone vibrating but actually somebody farted. ME. whhahahahhahahahaa! we should meet up more man. then we could talk shit more.. haha miss those times.
green green green:)
at 10:32 pm
Sunday, August 15, 2004
We could go and get 40s
Fuck goin' to that party
- the strokes>12:51
things should turn out find soon. IT SHOULD IT SHOULD! i shall fuck my miseries or try to.. no no.. not try.. must. i can't stand it la. 2004 still not happening.. must make something out of it.. like getting into aerospace course, oooohhhh ahhhh waaahhh.. best still.. at least talk to that building drafting girl which i've known her for almost 8 months but never talked before. wahahhahaha! too much.. okok. but ya.. must make something out of it, must get at least some As for this semester. then get good gpa points for next term.. then for next year also must get good gpa points so i can either get into higher nitec or poly.
Phantom Planet
In Our Darkest Hour
Oh yeah it started today in a cloud If I was the sun I would shout
I've got so much shining left before I'm out
Yeah it began with a spark then a flame grew into a fire and spread out again
And I just woke up here surrounded by the whole thing
Well, we have got to get out of here
In our darkest hour
When we may not make it
I can't see a thing through the smoke and if I could breathe
I'd try not to choke
No where to run no where to hide no where to go
Sometimes I get stuck yeah I get so upset
I burn at the ends I learn to regret
Just one toss of that faithful cigarette
Well, we have got to get out of here
In our darkest hour
I think the end is near I can feel it
We have got to get out of here
In our darkest hour
When we may not make it
green green green:)
at 2:31 am
Saturday, August 14, 2004
Laid - Matt Nathanson
Death Cab For The Cutie - The Sound Of Settling
listen to them. very nice.. ok.. friday went well except for my ngaji as usual la. school was ok la.. had metrology and metalogy. woahh.. the workpiece all there precise sial. the measuring instruments also headache. hahaha.. so then after school went to have my lunch at potong pasir macs, met kaanthan on my way there.. his school also finish early.. then dzul came along to join us also. and the best part, we missed friday prayers becozwe bought our food quite late.. but me and dzul went there to have our normal afternoon prayers. really guilty...........
my timetable has been reschedule. wheee! they moved our tuesday's lesson to monday. so on tuesday, i don't have to waste my fucking time to come to school!!!!!! wooohooo! NOT ONLY THAT. I OR RATHER WE, DON'T HAVE TO SEE OUR PRACTICAL TEACHER AGAIN!!!!!!! SELAMAT AKU! i think now i practical teacher is going to be quite strict but nevermind la as long he teach i understand enough already. i still need to do well in my main module.
remember about the girl from the building drafting course? yea she just looks better and better day by day. i also got to know that she's a student councillor. i wish i got the chance to at least talk to her.. but i think can forget about it la.. sad sad..
green green green:)
at 12:41 am
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
before i start, HAPPY BIRTHDAY AHMAD!
is everything screwed up?
2 friendly matches in 2 days. nice. i'm in lack of fitness, my hockey sucks as usual. this time worse. i could just say byebye to my dreams about at least playing for the nationals. i am just that kind of player who will improve and stop at the minimum level. i will never improve again.. sad.. i see people around me who comes for training as much as i do.. and they're obviously playing better than me. weird right? argh.. damn sad la...
tomorrow, i'll see that fuckface coz i'm having practical tomorrow. i somehow must find a way to finish my 2nd workpiece or 20marks just gone like that. i just passed my first workpiece. i still got this very scary feeling that i might fail this module coz of that fuckface. i'll blame all on him.. wheter my fault or not. fuck him. i seriously wish he was transferred la.. bodoh punya cikgu. not qualified ah. there's so much fun stuff to blog about my 3 days. maybe someday then..
nothing is turning out for the better for now
green green green:)
at 10:36 pm
Monday, August 09, 2004
watched Idola Singapura. POWER LA! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA! can laugh non stop la. hahaha.. all waste time only. hmm anyway i know that putting music on the blog is quite irritating but i'm just trying this out.. if very nice.. say nice in the guestbook, not nice also say.. so i will know whether irritating not..
SINGAPORE IDOL.. MORE LIKE SINGAPORE IDIOT. kaanthan has that badge. HAHAHAHAHAHAA! LEMON TREE..... HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAA!
green green green:)
at 10:58 pm
Friday, August 06, 2004
WAAAAATAAAAAAAAAA! I'm the next mat ninja. WATCH OUT! here i come!
they played this song yesterday on the OC.
-Rooney>Blueside-
The colors have built up in my mind
They're bleeding through my heart
And nobody knows that they exist
Look at my bursted veins
Now do you see the red in me
It's a sign for the end
Only the end of the red
Will show you my blue side
I've been given my brush and plate
But where will i paint my life
And will the buyer in the sky
Believe in what i dream
And it's so hard for me to explain
What i will miss
To myself
green green green:)
at 11:58 pm
Thursday, August 05, 2004
i just got back from a friendly match against NYP and they were quite good. next year's IVP tournament would be a tough one. combined ITE, i doubt i'd play most games but i'm quite looking forward to it. damn tired now. i can't run much now, so sad. i need to train more. MORE!
okok so that was hockey. school, had practical today. i think i'm begining to like practical but reading the micrometer, HEADACHE HEADACHE HEADACHE. nak mampus aku! the venier caliper is much better. but sad that in grinding all dimensions in microns. mampus la gini! haha.. then the teacher pun satu punya seywel. i hate the teacher la.. nak kutok pasal orang kutok kat depan ah.. jangan bilang orang lain la sial. babi sial punya cikgu. YEA he's so motivative! pantat ah... so what if i'm slow with my work, i'll show you i'll do my very best. then maybe kau jilat ah pantat aku ni.. aku tunjukkan kau la sial punya babi! serious man, not qualified ah become teacher. fuckthup asshole! nak mampus punya gila babi kutu! argh.. feel like giving him one napshot man! hahaha. teruk la he... idiot.. next grinding lesson i'm gonna rush and finish my workpiece, then campak kat muka sial dia!
enough of that.. stupid teacher.. i hope u get transfered to some other institute ah.. or go hospital better. hmm.. tomorrow there's this telematch in school. sounds fun.. i'm taking part in it. i think it's going to be good. but bad part is that i have to wake up at 6 coz there is still assembly for us. maybe i'll go secondary school too just for the fun of it. hahaha..
green green green:)
at 10:29 pm
Sunday, August 01, 2004
the computer was on since 5+ until now. my mother's going to make noise. electric bill confirm shoot shoot shoot high up the moon. i'm going to die. the reason i've switched on my comp from just now coz i was downloading 3 albums! woohooo! enough for a few weeks. no need money to buy cds for now accept the hives. and ooh! greenday's new album coming out this month! must get one. must somehow find money somehow, someway, somewhere. i don't know if i should start looking for part time jobs coz i definately cannot depend on my parents. must start learning to survive on myself. i think i should but i'm afraid that the job might clash with the division 1 matches coz the matches are usually on weekends, and i'm trying to find part time jobs on weekends. die la like that. i shouldn't have asked mr malik to put me in the team la. dick, now i'm regretting. anyway, my sister has offered me a job, haven't asked her when and what is it about.
i seriously need to find a part time job man. my money flowing like water. mac donalds, or what can also la. as long work will do. maybe i'll work at night safari with my sister.. coz it's at night. matches usually end around evening... good! shall ask her more about it. hmm.. i just reformatted my computer. thanks to derrick. no more nonsense installed. just clean clean clean computer filled with my music. muahahhahaa! ooh ya.. watched I,Robot. i thought the show was nonsense la.. but it was nice! the matrix scenes were thumbs up la!! those slow motion part. rated #1 in singapore, that's why la.
tomorrow school starts at 1000hrs. wake up at 8am.. eat, bathe, get ready, go school, finish around 12pm. go have lunch most probably at little india, then maybe play cs with classmates, if not go home, bathe, eat(optional), back to where i'm sitting right now. hmm don't you think the time pass quite fast?
green green green:)
at 11:04 pm
