i'm bored. and i know later on i won't go to sleep.. watched rush hour again.. pretty nice.. i hope i'll for tmr's trg. listening to 12 stones. they got some pretty nice music. Running Out Of Pain.. another slow rock.. depressing tune but nice.. the lyrics are nice too.. haha i've been reading alot of lyrics. one of the nicest is 12:51. thumbs up! i am so bloody bored. there's nothing to do.. i am not supposed to use the internet but i am.. TV is fulla bullshits. mtv's not happening. oh ya.. epsn.. damn..
i can't wait to get my fitness back though i didn't jogging this morning coz i woke up at like 11+ close to 12.. damn it.. i talk too much but do nothing... that's me la.. used to it.. marathon.. 7 days away... i don't think i'm really ready for it from the way my fitness is.. i am very very weak... i need to exercise more ->my sis was right.. drink milk-> my father was right. so much for being the only boy in the family.. i'm like a jelly.. like a wimp. need to be ready for 7 december..
oh ya my birthday is coming too.. not much to celebrate about.. only need to know if i passed my N exams. hai...
- Basket Case -
Do you have the time
To listen to me whine
About NOTHING and EVERYTHING
All at once
I am one of those
Melodramatic fools
Neurotic to the bone
No doubt about it
Sometimes I give myself the CREEPS
Sometimes my mind plays trick on me
It all keeps adding up
I think CRACKINGUP
Am I just PARANOID
Or am I just STONED
I went to a shrink
To analyse my dreams
SHE says it's lack of sex
That's bringing me down
I went to a whore
HE said my life's a bore
So quit my whining cause
It's bringing HER down
Sometimes I give myself the CREEPS
Sometimes my mind plays trick on me
It all keeps adding up
I think I'm CRACKING UP
Am I just PARANOID?
Uh ya.. ya.. ya..
Grasping to CONTROL
So I BETTER hold on
Sometimes I give myself the creeps
Sometimes my mind plays trick on me
It all keeps adding up
I think I'm CRACKING UP
Am I just PARANOID?
Or am I just STONED
so lately my blog is full with lyrics eh? i have no idea why i'm doing that either.. boring maybe? i should be going off now.. if my sister finds out, she'll kill me.. slaughter me, make me into something horrible if i'm still using the phone line.. byeeeeZ....
green green green:)
at 10:12 pm
ahh... home sweet home~.. after a long long day visiting my relatives houses from 4pm till now. only a hot cup of tea and hanis's The Strokes cd to keep me comfortable. so we went practically from Woodlands to Jurong back to Sembawang back to Pasir Ris and then HOME. my leg's are still stiff, especially my calves and limbs from that training. my sis, as usual, was busy laughing at me coz she thinks i don't do stretching and exercising or stuff that makes your muscles fresh.so she keeps saying what happens if i go NS.. blah blah blah..
inside the car, there were likes 9 people inside a small space wagon. packed eh? all of us, my family, my uncle's family, and my cousin. cramped up. so my sis was busy making a fool out of me becoz i walk as if i have big balls.. well not really la.. but my leg's were so stiff.. i hope i'll be fine by monday coz i wanna go for the sch training. so anw, all of them, were busy laughing at me.. and ME.. i was stuck in one corner of the car, putting my headphones on trying not to hear any single shit they were talking about.. but i did happened to hear it out LOUD.. too bad for me..
oh well, my brother in law was checking the mail while waiting for the lift and he happened to see my mails.. first thing that came in my mind was it the bills? did it went shoot up HIGH again? he showed me about some NS signing on stuff. was it bond or something? ya i guess it was.. so again.. my sister busy making fun of me.. still about that shit she was busy crapping in the car.. oh well. heck her la~..
so it's about this signing on stuff. i'm not sure if i wanna sign on.. coz honestly i haven't read the letter yet. maybe i shall blog about it some other time. then my bills came along.. it was 100++.. but lucky me.. coz i changed my plan to a new one.. and i guess 100++ was becoz of the subcribing into a new line or smtg. ahhaaha. good for me. i never got yelled. not sure about the next bill.. my sister's house phone bill... coz i've been using the internet like nobody's business.. so that one.. i must be careful.
The Strokes is nice. i kept playing 12:51 over and over again.. becoz of that.. i wrote something again. i didn't bother thinking of putting a title to it.. i like the first 2 paragraph.. the other two was just last min stuff. took some of the sentence from the 12:51 song also.. i'm so unoriginal... have i said that i can't go to sleep early these few days? ya i can't.. like everytime i forced myself to go to bed.. i will not fall asleep until 2++, 3++.. look.. i'm still awake now.. something's like bothering me and i wish i knew what it was.. maybe it's my lonely depressing life.. or i'm making all these silly things happening..
I asked my mother if i could get 2 cds. hahaa.. no doubt and red hot chili peppers greatest hits! i dun think i'm getting blink's new album.. not that i don't find their new album nice but i'm not really a big fan of blink 182.. oh well.. my cup of tea of finished.. and i'm done with typing.. here's what i wrote yesterday and today..
I was lying sad on my bed
And a tune was playing in my head
I'm afraid everything I say would go wrong
So I'll just sing it in a song
Every night I have this same feeling again and again
And those feelings are just too hard to explain
All I wish is to be with you tonight
Let's climb up the rooftop and enjoy the bright lights
I want to be beside her
She’s the one I admire
Pick up the phone and call me
Oh dear, I’m feeling so lonely
So many lonely nights
All I could do was to think of you and write
Oh girl, is it so hard to be with you?
Will my dreams ever come true?
I don't know why i keep writing all these lovey dovey stuff.. coz i'm bored? who cares anw.. i hope it's nice. well good night and good morning singapura.. hope i can go do jogging abit somewhere to get ready for the marathon.. i really look forward to it..
green green green:)
at 2:50 am
Friday, November 28, 2003
I am sick, tired, i'm having body ache. yesterday's trg was very tiring. not only that. i went visiting after training. very very very tired. i'm too weak to go train with derrick for the marathon. so much for looking forward to it. oh well. i hope i'll be fine by tmr. I MUST! anw.. before the trg, hanis followed me to pay my school fees then went suntec to eat, met ahmad and johan at peninsula coz ahmad needs to get guards? ya.. then while for them.. me and hanis saw there were assistant needed in that cd store near penin. so actually.. we're supposed to go today for the briefing but i'm too weak.. my whole body is stiff. i guess hanis has to go alone. sorry man..
ahhh.... i need to get ready for the marathon.. i can't just jog or run 10km without any trainings.. oh ya.. The Strokes - Room On Fire is nice. hanis lend me his CD. oh ya. we saw no doubt greatest hits, red hot chili peppers greatest hits in HMV. i feel like getting them both!!! no doubt's new song is nice! so does the rhcp's new song. two thumbs up!
oh ya.. was reading the 12:51 lyrics from The Strokes.. nice.
12:51
Talk to me now older
You friend told you 'cause I told her
Friday nights have been lonely
Change your plans and then phone me.
We could go and get 40s
Fuck goin' to that party
Oh really, your folks are away now?
Alright, let's go, you convinced me.
12:51 is the time my voice
Found The words I sought...
Is it this stage I want?
The world is shutting out...for us.
We were tense for sure,
But we was confident...
Kiss me now that I'm older
I won't try to control you
Friday nights have been lonely
Take it slow but don't warn me
We'd go out and get 40s
Then we'd go to some party
Oh really, your folks are away now?
Alright I'm coming...
I'll be right there.
green green green:)
at 11:20 am
Tuesday, November 25, 2003
selamat hari raya to everyone! didnt got to go out but i guess it's ok. anw. i was listening to the 12 stones. they're quite nice though. was listening 'The Way I Feel'. nice slow song. hmm heard the lyrics. quite depressing. but the song is nice. well wanted to go out but relatives coming over. quite sad but nevermind. why would i wanna be sad on hari raya. i've completed my fasting. i'm very proud of myself. never got to complete before.
and next.. my marathon, hockey trainings and my n level results. i hope i'll do well in it. i will. i must think that way now. no use thinking about the negative part of me. hmm.. here's the chorus from 12 stones - the way i feel. and wish everyone a selamat hari raya.
Cause I hate the way I feel tonight
And I know I need you in my life
Yes I hate the way I feel inside
And I promise to make the sacrifice
green green green:)
at 10:02 pm
Monday, November 24, 2003
so here i am.. still awake. instead of having my wonderful nap, my matress, i'm awake. writing some shits, wasting my sister's phone bill again. WHEN WHEN WHEN? when will i ever get to use broadband? anw. enough of that. i'm here to update on what i just wrote. so here it is....
Here I am again
Enduring my torturous pain
I've been doing these too many times
Can't I do something to rewind?
Or just put all these behind?
My mind clouded with miseries
Why do I have to be like this?
I'm here to enjoy my life
Not to have knives
Poking holes in it...
I kept saying it's all over
But why is it still here?
Sorrows are not meant to be with me
Can't you see?
usually i'll put some shitty title but this time i prefer to leave it blank. anw. i'm off. i need to get my rest, my matress, my soft pillows. not those dirty pillows. i mean as in pillows pillows. and my wonderland.... good nite singapura. maybe good morning la. anw heck la.. i'm slpy. peace......
green green green:)
at 2:05 am
Saturday, November 22, 2003
hari raya coming real soon. so much for holiday and i'm not making use of it. finding jobs, playing games like CM4 which i couldn't install, going out. i'm stuck at home wasting my sister's phone bill by staying on the internet for like an hour, 2 or more. but what the heck.. i ain't supposed to be sad or something.. my life is supposed to filled with excitement. yes yes. marathon marathon. 7 dec. too bad most of my friends would be gone by then. i heard benji's has left for thailand this morning. hanis's going australia, derrick's going thailand, nawfel's going thailand. me? no idea. i'm not sure if this is true. but i i manage to pass my n. MAYBE my father would bring me to thailand. A Place To Shop Till You Drop. hahaha like singapore got no shopping centre. anw. i'm gonna cut my hair. well gotta go now.
important dates:
25 nov
07 dec
15 dec(very important)
16 dec(very important)
green green green:)
at 2:35 pm
Wednesday, November 19, 2003
and so.. again, i've decided to forget whatever that has happened, that made my life a living hell. for now, i am looking forward about the marathon, hari raya, play hockey like i never played before, my n level results, my birthday and moving into a new school.
went out with my friends again yesterday. played cs. then breakfast with nawfel outside. then followed nawfel around coz he wants to shop for jeans. haha. he wanted to get levis but the money wasn't enough. nawfel nawfel... anw. so we went around the whole suntec city at 8pm+ haha. and most of the stores were about to close. so luckily we went in bossini one of the last shops that has an acceptable price of the jeans.
4th, 5th, 6th.. can't wait for those days. getting our entry pack. i couldn't believe derrick would run along. i thought i was running alone. oh well. good to have him around. yes yes. so it's back to fitness johan. muahahaha!
green green green:)
at 12:54 pm
Monday, November 17, 2003
i've just received my my confirmation slip. so 4th, 5th and the 6th of dec, i gotta go down to pan-pacific to get my entry pack. derrick's running.. good to hear that. thanks derrick. i am still down.... useless useless
green green green:)
at 7:27 pm
i'm addicted to the system of a down - chop suey. i love the rhythm.
and so.. a sad sad day to begin my week by looking forward to everything, especially life. it all started in friendster.com..
just noticed that she's attached. well i knew this would happen. why am i so down about? why do i keep reminding myself about these? whom do i confide to? why do i bother all these? this is life ain't it? ups and downs. i feel useless over and over again. i can't get things straight. whenever i'm on the run, i'll trip and fall. this is life. johan must learn to how expect all these.....
green green green:)
at 1:49 pm
Sunday, November 16, 2003
GUESS WHAT I BOUGHT FOR MYSELF TODAY. a new hp. cool eh? 3100... nice nice. goodbye 3330. miss that phone. anw. good things happened today. i nv felt this good before. as if i got my results back. hahaha! anw. tmr i'll be going down to any of the standard chartered bank to hand up my register form. friendster.com really happening man.. this is the happiest day of my life. i guess. hhahhahaa
michelle branch looks HOT in her new video. so does hilary duff. muahahhahaa! but michelle branch hotter. grrr~.. oh ya. the all-american rejects came out with their new song. time stands still. i have it. i downloaded the album. ahhaha cheap cheap me.
green green green:)
at 9:06 pm
Saturday, November 15, 2003
saturday. interesting. my first shopping since... i don't know. well, i bought the discman! sony, the one that has ATRAC and mp3 player. muahahahha! happy me. oh ya.. my old one. i don't know. i think i wanna send it for repair. i don't wanna throw it. i brought wherever i went, hockey trainings, anywhere la. anw.. i bought this 3 in 1 printer. it has scanner, copier and printing. cool eh? ya. well. nice nice. the price also nice nice...
so about the marathon. i guess i'll be running alone. just me. i'll be going to the branch near woodlands there again to hand in the form. $40. hope i'll make good use of the 10km. hope i won't pengsan. oh ya friendster.com.. nice~
green green green:)
at 11:13 pm
so i watched matrix revolutions again. got free tickets. why? coz the last time we went the sound system cork up. so we got free tickets for that. friday had been a very busy day for me. went mosque, went to the standard chartered branch, and jus came back from watching matrix revolutions. nice show!
standard chartered marathon. what about it? $40 - 10km. waste of money. that's what my friends say. well i'm just trying to get in. my first ever marathon. i guess hanis and derrick won't be running with me. or maybe hanis. derrick, i'm not sure yet. hanis said it was a waste of money. which is true. no doubt about that. but i don't know. i feel like running. but i don't wanna run alone. maybe i might just not run. coz i'm the kind of guy who does something stupid every last minute. guess my weird idea fades away just like that.....
green green green:)
at 1:20 am
Thursday, November 13, 2003
this is so cool! this is my third entry in one day. how wonderful. when was i the last time i've blogged so many times? well anw. im bored as you all know.. oh ya! The White Stripes - The Hardest Button To Button. heard that song? hahha nice song but irritating video. haha should go watch it. oh ya. i wrote another of my writing. it's crap la but nice. i like it. hahahha. coz it's all bullshit! hahhaha and the title was actually taken from force vomit - Johnny Levitate. see.. i could be so unoriginal. but read it.. it's nice..... if not nice. SHADDARP~~ or better still. don't read la.... hahaa i'm off. adios....
Levitate Me
Rain.. Sunny.. Rain..
There, I was low and behold again
In my room scribbling the wall
Written there, 'it was all my fault'
I sit beside my window
As the wind blows
Here I write this last letter
On this crumpled piece of paper
There, I left my last letter
Hoping that it will be for the better
I let go of my hands as I 'flew' away
And I'll never forget that rainy day
green green green:)
at 12:57 am
low and behold again. suddenly thought about my results. when will i get it back? will i get a good course? will i get the course i've always wanted? will i be able to continue studying? like you'd give a shit RIGHT? i mean. N level results? who gives a damn? oh no.. i ain't going there... 'it's the end'. no way.. i ain't gonna be like those losers becoming techinician and hair dressers and others.. well fuck yall! if u dun care? keep it to yourself dickhead. i ain't hearing all those bullshits from yall.
seriously. if you're trying to help, then act like you're helping. if not.. shut your mouth. well who am i refering to? friends! yes. not the majority of them but just few. you guys are just trying to demote us. yes. we are those few losers who'll end up there. but down there, we'll make use of it. how good or bad. we'll somehow make use of it.
ahh! fuck it la! it's just weird weird weird... i'm not going to let all of these ruin my life or my path i've chose or smtg got to do with it. it's just me man. yall just passer by. yall nothing now. so much for encouraging... well encourage this.. _|_
hmm why suddenly i'm talking about all this when it happened long ago? well i got tired of keeping it to myself. so there....
green green green:)
at 12:08 am
Wednesday, November 12, 2003
The Darkness - I Believe In A Thing Called Love
green green green:)
at 11:36 pm
Tuesday, November 11, 2003
i'm having a weird idea again.. i was thinking of taking part in the standard chartered marathon. fun eh? ya. but i'm not sure when is it if it's on the 7 or 12 dec. i gotta call derrick to come along.. he'll surely take part. gotta ask hanis also. i heard the distance was 10km don't know how true. but i saw the venue. it'll start from national stadium and ends at padang! cool~~~... i guess that's more than 10km. but oh well. i'm really ready to take part in it. besides, it's after the fasting month. this is gonna be fun fun fun......
green green green:)
at 10:04 pm
Monday, November 10, 2003
cool rite? it's blink's new album!!! should i get it? damn! i got so much things to get. i don't know why i keep putting pictures but it's fun so what the heck. not a big fan of them though but they're nice. love some of their songs. i wanna go HMV and check out more about their musique. good good. what's next?
green green green:)
at 9:38 pm
i saw this book at junction 8. was it the MPH? ya it was. saw that Chris Rock book. alot of his nonsense la. thinking of getting it. hmm. must check out again one day. oh ya.. it's called ROCK THIS!
green green green:)
at 1:46 pm
Saturday, November 08, 2003
cool. juz find out how to put in pictures.
green green green:)
at 4:51 pm
I'm feeling so alive! ok i don't why i'm blogging but i'm blogging.. i was browsing through the Sony catalogue and they have cool players! they had the mp3 player, discman, radio and much much more Sony gadgets! i'm thinking of getting the multiplayer. can play mp3 vcd, cd, cd-r, cd-rw tuner, cassette player and what more you need la! everything's in one! and guess how much. $329. that's quite cheap for a multiplayer. usually those kind of players cost around like what. $400-$600+++... i feel like walking around singapore electronic shops. THE WHOLE DAY! and i saw this radio which could play mp3, and others. and it costs $190. but the discman. $179. mp3, tuner, and almost the same as the multiplayer but don't have the vcd player. but what the heck! $179.....
i break fast at geylang today. interesting place. went the joo chiat complex and the bazaar. bought a new songkok! cool. bought some hari raya cards also. nice place. wish could spend more time there. hmm. haha. i asked my sis if she wants to go mustafa centre at nite. coz now mustafa is 24 hours. yup old story. anw. i wanna check out some new discman... if they have cheaper ones. coz hanis bought his there. oh ya. hanis. ur radio you bought. wasted la. should have bought the $190. got mp3 somemore.
i talk as if i got so much money ah? johan what. belagak only. act as if my pocket, my bank full with money. what the heck. i'll work for it man. i really need a discman now. my old discman rosak. damn it right? it only lasted for like 1 year then so fast spoil.. ahhh what the hell la.. i'll save. i can do it. as long i won't spend on cds anymore. ahhahaha. oh ya. nawfel told me receiving our N level results on the 15dec. juz before my bday. MAMPUS! i don't know whether true or not la. but i'll find out. someway somehow. for now. i'm off. "to the household" -remember that ad?
green green green:)
at 1:47 am
Thursday, November 06, 2003
matrix revolutions was a kick ass!
Go watch it!!!
green green green:)
at 1:16 am
Tuesday, November 04, 2003
i've changed my blog template coz elementopia.com having some problems with their pictures. it doesn't seem to show them.. well i think this look quite dull and nice. anw. we, derrick and nawfel and i went dhoby ghaut again, meridien. played CS, star wars. star wars was fun! CS was wrecked. we got thrashed! by some pro CS gamers. anw. played for 3 hours. paid $7.50. got hole in my pocket la... well it was fun...
after that we went home. i break fast at home. bought chicken briyani. i'm still full... didnt went for prayers today though... hahahaha. i'll go tmr. watched queen of the damned on HBO. nice show. oh ya. we're watching matrix revolutions! me, my nephew, my sis, my bro-in-law and my cousin... anw. i'm can't stay long now. shall blog another day. i'm having a bad bad headache..... \m/
green green green:)
at 10:20 pm
a nice event to spend the whole day with the girl of our dreams.
derrick's: start of with a movie with the girl in the GV(that couple seats or smtg), then go to the esplanade's roof top, spend the whole evening there. then to the tonkang. hahaha. some more got lamps on each ends of the tongkang. and spend the night having their dinner there. candle lights, tables, chairs, champagnes, different kind of dishes, chatting and others.
johan's: start with a movie with the girl. free tickets! slowly make our way to any of the gigs or rock band shows(if there is any). if not to the HMV.. spend our whole evening checking out new stuff. then make our way to the esplanade's roof top. spend our night there having dinner. restraunts, different kind of dishes, coca colas, ice-creams, chocolates! talking about new bands, new stuff. enjoying the sea breeze~~~
boy we wish all of that would happen. but! NOOOOT~~
weird stuff.....
green green green:)
at 12:14 am
Saturday, November 01, 2003
I don't care what you do.
I'm getting out , no nothing ever shames me.
Don't wanna thing from you
I'm going out, I don't care if you're angry.
Jimmy Eat World - Get It Faster
i love that song! rabak gila punya! i wonder i'm blogging. i have nothing to say. well i'm totally bored. my scv is fixed, thought there'll be some soccer matches. well i don't know la. i don't have the mag with me. liverpool vs fulham tmr.. and i didn't go for prayers. how nice to spend my saturday night unproductively doing nothing at home but wasting my internet bills. how nice... should've went for prayers. at least if i DID go.. i would have done something good. well what the heck. i'm off..
green green green:)
at 8:38 pm
