Thursday, May 27, 2004
argh.. my green day international superhits got scratches. heart pain heart pain! so sad....
anyways a better part of the day.. i finally finished with my 2 exams. i'm not sure i'm going to do well but i hope i'll pass and move on the the next semester. i don't want to repeat the same module and see my fuckthup turning teacher again. NO WAY! so i have no school tomorrow till july i think. it's hoooooooliday now! now i don't think the scc trip to KL is not happening coz if it does happens.. we should be informed. sad sad. i was hoping for it actually. oh wells.
i hope hoooooooliday would be rather an interesting one coz i've always had a boring one or either that i didn't make use of it.
green green green:)at
5:40 pm
Monday, May 24, 2004
played a full game yesterday coz there weren't enough people. i tell you it was tiring man. playing in the premier team is no bullshit. i ran like a mad dog. hmm not really la. coz till the second half.. i was way way tired. our capt, scored a goal and he's the keeper. nizaar played keeper for us. so chris played outfield. that fellar damn kembang la. i praised him it was a good goal. and instead of saying thanks or anything, he just jogged straight with his nose up damn high. irritating. hahaha.
though i played the full game. i wasn't impress with myself. i had a one on one with the goal keeper and i miss push the ball. i guess history repeats again. i had a game once against acs. i think that was sec2. yea someone gave through ball to me.. and the keeper shouted oh shit oh shit. i started laughing and i missed the ball.. what a fool. hahaha. oh well only that yesterday i just miss push the ball la. BUT! i guess i made a nice stop la. the ball was flying. but didn't managed to score the goal. oh well.
there's a premier training today and i'm too tired to go. had sch to finish up my workpiece. my fingers got cut. bloody metal chips. tomorrow have to go to school again while most of my classmates are at home enjoying.. and studying? hahaha exam is on wednesday an thursday. then after that it's hoooooliday!! whee.. tomorrow got friendly against the cubs. i will try to ole somebody. muahaha! ooh ya.. i hope the trip to KL that the club is organising will not be canceled. i really hope so. i want to enjoy my holiday OUT OF SINGAPORE! anyway till then. OLE!
green green green:)at
6:27 pm
Saturday, May 22, 2004
here i am on a lazy saturday. woke up with 2 messages. one from derrick, and the other from ahmad. ahmad asked if i want to go queensway with them while derrick asked if i want to go and watch movie with nawfel and all. i guess i'm not going for both. hanis just called that he's already at queensway and i didn't know anything coz ahmad said he'll callback again once he gets home which he didn't. so i guess i'm not going coz i haven't even bathed yet. for derrick, i got no money to watch movie. so sorry guys.
i am still abit quite sick. i've so far finished one phase test. now i have to go back to school on monday to finish up both my phase test, if i could that is. while the rest of them who has finished is having fun at home coz next week is our exam. and it's only on 2 days. wednesday and thursday. how nice. anyway i must try to finish them both coz if i don't, i might just repeat my module again. now that's fuckthup!
there's a premier game tomorrow at 6pm delta. not sure if i'm not going coz i'm not feeling well. there's a div 3 game today also not sure against who but wish them all the best.
i'm hungry, i didn't even had my breakfast. i haven't bathe. i'm having a minor headache, i'm bored, i don't know what to cook. what a wonderful saturday so far...
green green green:)at
1:06 pm
Tuesday, May 18, 2004
SICK!
had training yesterday and i guess we're quite ready for u18. it's nice to be in the lions team. though i know helping out cubs team would be better coz they don't have much experience players. well i don't count as one but i've been playing with them since i started joining scc. it's sad. for the lions team, i know i won't get to play much coz that team is something like an all star team. but i guess some of us might have to go back to the cubs team. oh wells.
didn't go to school coz i'm SICK! i had my last workpiece to finish and that was my phase test. i'm gonna fail fail fail. i hope not coz i have my mc. having flu, cough, my nose kept leaking. irritating. haven't ate anything yet except my mother's porridge. please be well tomorrow johan exams are next week. ohh. got to know that my exam is on wednesday and thursday next week. then i guess after that it's holiday? after holiday, is back to school with a different class again.....
green green green:)at
6:13 pm
Sunday, May 16, 2004
yes i'm happy. i got to dribble one fellar and i was damn happy la. girls at the side were like shouting and clapping. felt like my head was thhhhhhiiiiiiiiiisss big la. muahahha. happy happy. i guess i played quite ok in today's game though the first half was a screw up for me la. whee. shall go for training tomorrow. that's all for now. happpppppppppppppppppppy.
green green green:)at
10:06 pm
tomorrow will be my last day for happiness coz the week after next will be my exam. and i haven't start studying.
green green green:)at
1:02 pm
Friday, May 14, 2004
i asked my mother if i could skip my religious class tonight. and she said don't give me that 'you're tired' as an excuse. oh well so much for the week. today was quite ok compared to the past few days after the last premier game. yesterday had a game at delta due to postponed game last month. so it was played on the second half, and we we're losing 1-0. yesterday, they had only 11 players. our goalkeeper chris had to play outfield. that was what i heard from benji. didn't go yesterday coz i wasn't in the first 16. i think for the whole premier season. i've only played 2 games. both 15mins only. how pathetic. i'm not impressed. i'm supposed to get exposure and yet i've not played enough games. oh well like what hanis and mr danker said, playing premier the first year isn't fun coz you won't get a place. i wonder if i'm ever going to still be in the team next year.
today school was fun. we played soccer after lesson coz on fridays we finish early always. played against the bendemeer sec. it was fun. then went to sas to take my certificate. then met derrick, dzul and kumaresan. they wanted watch movie today but ended not. so after prayers, dzul and i went to derrick's house. watch next week's OC. haha now don't have to stay up late next thursday to watch. ohh ya. next week's my last week for lessons and then it's exam. i've not studied anything yet. well fuck me! at this rate, don't even think about the aerospace course.
gotta finish all my phase test for my workpiece. my last turning workpiece i got 86. it was good. having me doing the workpiece all by myself without anybody's help. i just hope that fellar won't minus marks for handing it up late. anyway it's not late. i just hope not. next week is my last 2 phase test. turning and milling. i have to complete them both.
there's a game on sunday i'm not sure i'll come coz if i do, i waste my money going there and back home again. anyway i better leave now. i'm going to be late for my religious class.
green green green:)at
7:43 pm
Monday, May 10, 2004
In The Shadows
i know things weren't going well since the start of the year. like i said yesterday, if only things could've gone better. i am still quite disappointed about yesterday. but i'm trying to forget whatever that has happened. anyway this isn't the first time. some of you may know why. hmm about the incident about the chenab game during my u21 tournament, having trouble shifting house. some misunderstanding with my sister about the N level results. argh! everything was fuckthup. well things could've gone better. just gonna try to forget and live with it la. i think this song is nice.
"In The Shadows"
The Rasmus
No sleep
No sleep until I am done with finding the answer
Won't stop
Won't stop before I find a cure for this cancer
Sometimes
I feel I going down and so disconnected
Somehow
I know that I am haunted to be wanted
I've been watching
I've been waiting
In the shadows all my time
I've been searching
I've been living
For tomorrows all my life
In the shadows
In the shadows
They say
That i must learn to kill before i can feel safe
But I
I rather kill myself then turn into their slave
Sometimes
I feel that I should go and play with the thunder
Somehow
I just don't wanna stay and wait for a wonder
I've been watching
I've been waiting
In the shadows all my time
I've been searching
I've been living
For tomorrows all my life
Lately I been walking walking in circles, watching waiting for something
Feel me touch me heal me, come take me higher
I've been watching
I've been waiting
In the shadows all my time
I've been searching
I've been living
For tomorrows all my life
I've been watching
I've been waiting
I've been searching
I've been living for tomorrows
In the shadows
In the shadows
I've been waiting
green green green:)at
8:04 pm
had a game against csc today. it wasn't the best for the team and for me. 2-0. everyone played. while me, i think i was quite disappointed and pissed. well everyone understands how it feels to sit on the bench until the final whistle blows. it's premier la. no use getting all sulky like what benji said. i was real sad la. playing for premier, hoping i'll improve hockey from there. yesterday i played a div 3 game coz they didn't had much players. so i played under nizam's name. i hope nothing happens to the club though. so anyway that game, i think i fucked everything up. so much to be in the premier team la. i can not improve there when there's no exposure for me. it's nice to be in the premier team but what's the use if i don't get any exposure of the game. i know you have to fight for a place. that i have to agree, but today, it was totally a different situation la. i mean it's soo obvious i was the only one sitting my fucking ass all the way while others, yea they played their balls off la.
im not angry with the team or mr malik, i just feel like i need to be included more in the team. i really was castaway la. and it was fuckthup. oh well. and i think that the team isn't really united. they don't really listen to mr malik. everyone has their own thinking. i don't know la. maybe i know nothing about premier division. it's one of the hardest division here in singapore. and i know i gotta fight my ass off to get a position la. but i don't know la. maybe i've not improved. fuck it la. just fuck it. today was horrible man. just after the final whistle was blown, i felt like crying man. serious la. started hockey pri 3 and my first ever tournament was pri 6. and i was and i am still warming the bench now. i don't know. things could've gone better. anyway i'm sorry about the attitude today guys. well i gotta go now. before someone makes noise. shall blog another time.
green green green:)at
12:42 am
Wednesday, May 05, 2004
i think this is quite nice.
Picture something in black and white
Just relax and free your mind
Imagine it's an adventurous night
So sit back and just travel through time
I was amazed by the way you dressed
To be with you by my side
I felt it was the best
But holding your hands that night
Was special
I hope we'll meet again
Someday, somewhere
I didn't got to know your name
But I know,
We'll meet somewhere
green green green:)at
7:23 pm
Monday, May 03, 2004
I Miss You
To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn't think could be real
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold utopian dream
You do something to me that I can't explain
So would I be out of line if I said
I miss you?
I see your picture
I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine
You have only been gone ten days
But already I'm wasting away
I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon
But I need you to know that I care
And I miss you
green green green:)at
9:43 pm
Saturday, May 01, 2004
would i be out of line if i said, I Miss You?
green green green:)at
4:39 pm
