Wednesday, March 31, 2004
one more hour and it's HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DERRICK. you turn 17. and i owe u. hahaha.
green green green:)at
11:07 pm
Sunday, March 28, 2004
i wrote this not quite long ago. just remembered. was reading my past writings.
Vanished From This Town
Why do we have to stop here?
Why do we have to end with tears?
Looks like everyone has their own ways.
And I'm standing here alone, and I've got nothing else to say.
Slowly, I'm being pushed to the back of the picture, crying.
And soon, I'll find myself disappearing.
It was all so fine.
And we have to end up here when it's not our time.
Is this how the story ends?
Is this how the story was meant?
All I know is that there's no use stopping.
Coz now to me, life is changing,
and at the same time, it's fading.
green green green:)at
12:10 pm
Thursday, March 25, 2004
here i go again obssesed with music again. what a lovely jumpy tune. i looooooove it. some reggae reggae tune. shiok gila! makes you wanna move to da beat. ok.. i should be tired from the run just now. but not really. well my timing was 27.03mins. and it was effed up. i don't know why i had to stop and walk for more than 3 times? anyway, ite balestier did quite well with only 2 wins from the B div, which i was running for. it started i ran quite smoothly for the first 2 close to 3 km i guess. damn it la. shouldn't have stop. should've jogged all the way. oh ya. met hema there also. she got 1st or 2nd for b div girls if i'm not wrong. she's fast for for a girl. wah 27.03mins. that teruk man.
well at least the day went well though it was raining for awhile. met some new friends from automotive course. they're quite ok la. very open. oooh ya. ite bishan, they got hot chicks there, hot sporty chicks running man. i guys all the guys went drooling went they started stretching. i know mahendran was looking only. muahahhaa. i should be fine for next year's x country. i guess if i have no injuries or anything. and ite macpherson, got this pretty looking girl too. and wearing that sleeve shirt. that singlet.. ew.. didn't like it but i had no choice. the track was quite muddy la. nearly slipped and fall on one of the slops. but oh well.. sad sad. 27.03 is pathetic. i'm happy if my timing is 20.++.. everything's over now.
tomorrow theory till 11+.. go mosque, go home sleep, go for religious class, come back home, sleep maybe? saturday, hope i'll get my new guitar. maybe watch div 3 match since there's no premier game this weekend. it's all going whee for me. here's the reggae song. i thin it was an old song.
mysterious girl. -peter andre.
I stop and stare at you
Walking on the shore
I try to concentrate
My mind wants to explore
The tropical scent of you
Takes me up above
And girl when i look at you
Oh i fall in love
No doubt you look so fine
Girl i wanna make you mine
I want to be with a woman just like you
No doubt i'm the only man
Who can love you like i can
So just let me be with the woman that i love
Baby girl... Shine like a looking glass
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Mysterious girl
I wanna get close to you
Oh, oh, oh, oh ,oh, oh
Mysterious girl
Move your body close to mine
Girl you are me heart's desire
And you alone a set me soul on fire
Me tell dem
Girl you are me heart's desire
And you alone... watch dis
Watching the sun go down
The tide is drifting in
We can get closer now
And feel the warmth within
cos i'm looking in your eyes
Feeling so alive
And girl when you touch me
It's time to take it through the night
Girl i wanna be with you
I wanna spend the night with you
i need to be with the woman that i love
Girl i wanna do to you
All the things you want me to
I need to be with the woman that i love
Baby girl... let your loving release
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Mysterious girl
I wanna get close to you
(So close to you my baby)
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Mysterious girl
Move your body close to mine
Well i've been sitting by the phone hoping you'd call
When time me hear your voice I feel ten feet tall
Body weh you have a make de man dem a bawl
Man a trip over man when time your name call
Your pretty looks surround me like a flowers a bloom
And I love the smell of your Elizabeth Taylor perfume
Your personality alone light up de room
Just one kiss alone a make me heart go boom
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Mysterious girl
I wanna get close to you
(c'mon now,c'mon now)
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Mysterious girl
Move your body close to mine
green green green:)at
9:37 pm
Wednesday, March 24, 2004
i'm running for x country tomorrow. our PE head reserved 2 slots for us. how nice. so tomorrow, macritchie reservoir. i'm not sure if i spelt that correctly. anyway, 2pm in the afternoon. hot sun but nevermind. and i have to wear that atheletic singlet. yucks! i hate singlets. but oh well. i have to wear it. no choice. so half day for me tomorrow. wish me all the best!
green green green:)at
8:24 pm
Tuesday, March 23, 2004
i've chose a nice time to blog about my tuesday. just right after smallville. back to the 50s. cool.ok so here's how it started. had my turning practical today, and my workpiece was gone. i didn't know how it got lost. but yeah.. i managed to get another workpiece. managed to catch up. hmm just left with few more bits here and there. and i guess it should be done. but i'm not sure if i could score well on that piece. oh well.
anyway, i got my cap back yesterday. thanks to kai bin. i'm so lucky to have friends like him. it'll be gone if he hadn't taken it. lucky me.. had training yesterday. not the normal trainings we usually have. but ya.. it was quite fun and tiring. so school ended nearly 5. was quite ok. met derrick and nawfel. had macdonalds for my lunch. coz i didn't eat anything during my break. dumb right? just had sugar cane juice. and i had to walk 15mins from school all the way to the coffee shop just to get it. with my safety shoes on. damn uncomfortable man.
best part of today is. although everything went screwed. but i managed to maintain myself for not cursing my day or my life. FOR THE FIRST TIME (i guess), i've managed to maintain myself. WHEEEEEEEEEE!i shall keep doing that for the next few years or maybe for the rest of my life if the day's already screwed. see, this is cool. no effed-up words in this entry. anyway, i shall end this with lyrics from Rufio - One Slowdance
You're standing there alone
And so am I
But I want you here
By my side
Your smile at me
Is everything
The staring game
That song of love.
I look you in the eyes
I try to read you thoughts
I ask you to go with me
To a far off place.
Oh.
(2X)
Chorus:
You and me dancing the night away
You can feel my heart beating so hard.
We look eye to eye
And I'm swept away.
On a moonlit walk on the beach
Watching the sunrise for the first time
I'm in a trance
From that one slowdance.
You're standing there alone
And so am I
But I want you there
By my side
Your smile at me
Is everything
The staring game
That song of love.
I look you in the eyes
I try to read you thoughts
I ask you to go with me
To a far off place.
Oh.
(2X)
Chorus.
We don't have to talk,
We don't have to laugh at all
I just want you here with me
We don't have to talk,
We don't have to laugh at all
I just want to be
You and me
Chorus.
green green green:)at
11:58 pm
Sunday, March 21, 2004
have not still listen to the whole album yet. but some of the songs were nice though. anyway, the match against chenab ws superb, said by the whole team.. that includes mr malik. although we drew 1-1 with them. we played a good game. sorry guys, i couldn't come for the division 3 game. frankly, i was too lazy watch the match. because i had my 'breakfast' at 3+ so felt quite lazy. oh ya, fucked, i lost my cap again. im feeling damn guilty man.
well, school starts tomorrow. it's all back to shits and stuff like that. school starts at 10 for me tomorrow. and ends around 4.45 there. so i guess i'll straight head down for training. which i doubt most people coming. it's really sad that the division 3 is tearing apart. we have people quitting hockey, we have people who have attitude, who thinks they're stars. oh well. shan't go any further. and i'm still guilty about my cap.
green green green:)at
11:01 pm
there's a match later which i'm not going to play again. how sad. oh well need to be the team manager but i just have to bring my stuff along 'just incase' someone can't make it. that'll be the day la. the div 3 are also having a match at 4.30pm at delta. not sure if i'm going there to watch. i haven't even bathed yet although it's like 2+ in the afternoon.
i just don't feel like going for the match. premier is fun but if i don't get to atleast sit on the bench, then there's no fun. this is so boring. went out yesterday, bought my jack johnson cd. ahmad bought the lostprohets. nice. they sound like hoobastank. johan bought his new turf boots. hm.. gonna leave now. boring boring sunday.
and now i try hard to make it
I just wanna make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that i'm alright
and you can't change me...
perfect. -simple plan.
green green green:)at
2:39 pm
Saturday, March 20, 2004
i can't sleep. though i'm tired. thought i could go hmv and buy jack johnson cd. but the dinner ended late. no wait, it ended quite early this year. it ended around 1030++ then the dance started. wanted to dance la. but me. never danced before. but i love the bhangra beats. that was the part when i wanted to come in and join the dance. but nah.. anyway. didn't had time to go hmv (obviously). which dinner ends so early? none.
so after the dinner we didn't know what to do. went esplanade for awhile.. then realised it was 1130++ had to catch the last train home. or else it's either taxi or the Night Rider bus. so manage to catch the train. lucky us. the others went to play pool. i wish i could come along. but my place is so far away from there. hmm.. looking outside the window. i guess it's drizzling. GOOD! at least it'll be a cold night.
Nirvana - Stay Away. nice song. i am going to buy jack johnson cd as soon as possible. i'm running ou of music. i need new music. so maybe i could write some shit. guess should leave now. i think it's quite late. maybe i won't sleep. maybe i'll just watch tv or stare at the ceiling and hopefully i'll fall asleep. and soon into my dreamland. and i'll be dreaming about this girl, enjoying watching the sunsets on the beach. whee.. i could already picture it. ok. if it happens, it's just a dream. it'll never be true.
shoot the moon. -norah jones.
green green green:)at
2:08 am
i've updated the pictures from the dinner. they're on the side links.
the dinner was alright. everything was fun. the food was fine. too bad there were no ice creams this year. well that's about it.
green green green:)at
1:14 am
Wednesday, March 17, 2004
you know, it's really fuckthup to start my entry with a fuck in it. fucked. am not feeling fine. i'm fucking bored. damn the holiday. once school starts , it's back to all my fuckthups. the holiday was meant to be fun. well, fuck me. i blame it all on me. butterfly effect's a kick ass movie. just only that i hate stories that has got lots of links in it. but that's me. lucky i have people to explain what the story was all about. i'm so useless. went both of the HMVs. didn't buy anything back. wanted to get jack johnson. just couldn't make my fucking mind up.
If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares
all you wanted. -michelle branch.
green green green:)at
8:51 pm
i found a wonderful timing to blog about my tuesday. well it's wednesday already. anyway, back about tuesday. so here's how it started, woke up at 1130, switched on my computer, checked my mails, swicthed off my computer, tuned in to perfect 10, half way the radio went blank. darn that hifi. went back to to my computer, played cs. then i forgot what happened. the one week holiday is fucking fucking bored!anyway, i'm still listening to jack johnson, AND norah jones. her music. thumbs up. also like those by the beach music. thanks to mavis. i think i'm going to get one of the jack johnson's cd. but don't which album to get. will go hmv and check it out soon. SOON.
i'm fucking bored at home. so rot and rot and rot till 3 4+. was watching the bionic woman on channel 5. wah. really old skool man. love her hairstyle. tried to get some sleep but failed coz my nephew and my niece making all of noise. had always been noisy. then my niece went to sleep. and left with my nephew. he went to his room listening to his discman. cool ain't it. when i was 7 years old, i didn't know what was a discman. i don't know if it existed at that time either. anyway, he was keeping quiet listening to his 'music'. god knows what he's listening to. i was back at my comp again listening to jack johnson over and over again. damn i'm obssesed.
so change and everything. got ready for a match against CSC. had to miss light years! lucky didn't miss smallville. kristin kreuk gets hotter and hotter in every episode. wheee.. should watch the next episode. so met benji at admiralty station, went to redhill. bought some snacks coz i was damn hungry. kept eating that sticks biscuits and chocolate dip. reached delta quite early. watch the nationals train. project squad. boy i wish when i'm getting near there. i'm not even near there. even though i'm playing for premier, i don't find myself good enough. so we warm up and everything. and just when the game was about the start. one side of the stadium light wasn't working. so umpire asked both teams if we want to continue. and CSC said no. so the fucking game was postponed. how pathetic. just because they didn't had their star players that means they can't play. but even if they postponed the game, they'll play with the same team. dick la. this new zealand playing for our club.. he's damn skillful la. he was like cursing and all about the game. hahaha. was laughing. funny fellar.
anyway won't be able to play the next match. will be the manager again. i'm not going to say anything. i guess i'm used to it. since pri 3. i started playing for school only in pri 6. and at that time.. i really sucked. didn't know how to play hockey at all. was a reserved all the way. till sec 2... was still warming the bench.. but i did played some of the matches. same goes for sec 3. was also a reserved only played more matches this time. sec 4. started first 11. played most of the matches. sadly, didn't play for semis and finals. then now in ite. still a reserved. played very few matches. damn, i think the most matches i played was only div 3. and u21 and u18 cubs. i can never see myself playing for singapore like this. what mr malik said was true. i should be playing in div 3 but if i don't move on, i'll be playing the way i am forever. i will never upgrade. that was what he said. true la. at least it's good to be in the premier team. it's ok la. only that the whole environment's different. but.. i hope i won't give up. - my aim, to be in the singapore hockey squad.
dreams be dreams. -jack johnson.
green green green:)at
1:37 am
Saturday, March 13, 2004
jack johnson. got to get the album.
his songs are nice and lovely. it's very smoothing. by the beach. oh ya. had a match today. was postponed during half time. the score was 1-0 we were losing. don't know when they'll continue it. and i didn't play. had 17 players. i knew something wrong going to happen. oh well. i knew i wouldn't fit in the team. well obviously felt quite sad. was all ready and changed up. and he told me there was an extra player. so me. the lousy one had to be the manager.fuck. i'd rather play then watching it. ahh heck la. there's a training on monday and another match on tuesday. there's a hockey dinner this coming friday. not sure if i'll turn up for it.
anway enough of fuckthups. my fucking life is full of it. ooh ya.. my mother's really getting me a guitar. not sure if it is the classical, or accoustic or the semi accoustic or whattever you say it. i'm getting it. and i'm going to try my best to learn it like how i had my organ lessons. i guess this is going to be fun. no more boring coz i have my new guitar to play if really got it. i won't be online rotting, or playing cs. or watching some useless tv shows other than smallville, lightyears, and some others. still listening to jack johnson. he rocks la. need to fine more of this kinda music. need to visit HMV often. ahh fuck. damn dissapointed.
green green green:)at
11:40 pm
Friday, March 12, 2004
my friday went so well. except for my ngaji.
everything went so well. had a minor test today so finished quite early. met ahmad to go for prayers at serangoon north. then hanis happened to be at home.. so we went to relac at his house.. had our lunch there, then followed him to the clinic coz his knee injured. poor him.. always injured. anyway so went back to his house again coz i couldn't get enough of learning how to play the guitar. it's actually simple if my fingers were soft and could bend easily.
and yes! i asked my mother if i could have one cheap guitar for me to learn and she said yes! i'm so happy. so at least i can play another instrument. just need help from ahmad and hanis. we better start making musik man. MUSIK! i just wish i had a guitar with me now.. can learn slowly.. i can read the tabs. wheeee! once again, i'm proud of myself.
i've not collected my glasses yet. guess i'll collect it tomorrow. jack johnson songs are smoothing. his voice is nice, his music is very by the beach. i think i'll get one of his album. but i'm in need of money. gonna save up. gonna save up. hmm there's a match tomorrow against the police. my second premier match. hope i'll get into the team, and at least get to play. haha. well i have nothing else to blog. just happy to hear to get a guitar. i hope i'll really get it.a cheap one will do. a semi accoustic.
green green green:)at
11:29 pm
Thursday, March 11, 2004
starsailor's four to the floor.
kept listening to that song. like that very stoning moody tune. was listening to it on the bus, then on the train, then back on the bus, then now. anyway. i don't know why i end up here. i shall play cs now. or maybe eat first. im hungry...
green green green:)at
7:50 pm
Wednesday, March 10, 2004
i got my specs done. it looks retro. going to collect it on friday. then wherever i go from now, it shall stay stick on my face. i shall not leave it lying around anywhere. school was fine. darn tired. wanted to finish up my work but after having my lunch at 3.. i felt lazy to drill holes and all. but i still stayed for like 45 mins to mark out for the holes and help to clean the workshop. it was raining heavily.. but it didn't matter. i was hoping to rain actually don't know why. oh well..
sometimes you have this very feeling of being leftout. for what? i don't know. ahh heck it la. has always been like that.
oh ya.. by the way.. i can say byebye to aerospace. it seem every workpiece i did.. i either fail or i don't do that well. i have fuckthup teachers when you ask him questions and he'll give you that fucking irritating look and just smile at you back... fucking irritating right? then got teachers who'll always pick on you when you've done nothing wrong.
green green green:)at
11:01 pm
Tuesday, March 09, 2004
this is johan reporting from studio. here are the updates:
i have nothing better to do right? anyway.. i've got my hair cut. wheee! now i look like the 7-up guy. annnnnd my morning suck. my teacher was marking my workpiece. though i thought i could at least get 70+ for that piece but i got 61. now that really suck man. didn't had the mood to have my breakfast. but i did la. so anyway.. most of the machines were taken.. so i slacked, walked around, tried to get some sleep, while waiting for the machine. my last workpiece's going to be hard. darn hard. got to do it very carefully.
oh ya.. the premier match was fine la. played 15 mins only.. which was better than nothing, really it was. i was running around the pitch like a mad dog. playing centre forward is sooo tiring. thanks to kaanthan for giving up his place for me. i felt damn guilty man. anyway i owe you one. thank you. he would have been a better forward than me. i'm such a disgrace to the team. and you all reading this would go.. "here goes johan with his negative shit again".
blink 182 rocks man. was listening to some of their old songs and their no difference from green day. but im not a big fan of blink. just like their songs. i don't even know who's mark, tom and travis. i mixed up. alien exist and carousel from them rocks! should listen to those song. hmm.. starsailor - four to the floor. that one also nice. love that stoning tune. i don't know what else to type. oh ya.. here's the poetic malay song. love the lyrics. i think that is all it.
Seusia malamku menantimu
Dihembus embun aku tersipu
Mungkinkah kau lupa temujanji kita
Kau gembira bersama teman-temanmu
Berlari-lari ku mencarimu
Selembut salju musim berlalu
Mengapa berubah sekelip mata
Hatiku gundah tiada terhingga
Kau umpama merpati putih
Patah sayapnya di udara
Kau umpama merpati putih
Patah sayapnya di udara
Merbahaya
green green green:)at
8:26 pm
Sunday, March 07, 2004
waiting for the time to pass. tick tick tick tick tick. i have a match later at delta, 6.00pm against SRC. i guess it's a strong team. i think my balls are shrinking. so darn scared. my first ever premier match. and also.. that is if i get selected for the first 16. i think i'm the only lousy player there. the rest.. i think they've got the fixed position. and i'm playing on a new position if i'm playing today. anyway shall not talk if i'm playing today. damn i'm really really scared. guess if im not selected for first 16. then i'll just have to go back to div 3. but i'm not feeling sad or anything. i don't mind playing for div 3. i've been playing there since sec 1. so it doesn't matter. only one thing i'm losing is exposure. i need to expose myself in fast game. like i can't be playing with the veterans anymore. yes they're skillful.. but i got to move on. how to improve if keep staying.
oh well. not putting any hopes or anything. i think i'll scare myself even more. just leave it as it is. shall update more once i got back from the match. that's if i play. shall go and relacs now.
green green green:)at
1:01 pm
Friday, March 05, 2004
my mat-ish specs is gone! GONE! GONE!!!
fucked! it's gone. i ws having my lunch and i placed my specs on the table. then when i left, i forgot to take my specs. then 10 mins later went back to check for it. it was GONE! fucking gone! hmm.. felt so bad. damn bad. especially for mother. she bought for me that and i lost it just like that. wa lao. hope i'll get to find it. please i do hope so. i really like that glasses. guess i have to get a new one for now. hmm.. i'll get the cheaper one. darn it la. it's really fuckthup you know. you have this guilty feeling in you.
anyway, i do hope i'll get to find it back. here's what i'm going to do the whole of saturday:
- go cut my hair
- go make a new glasses (hopefully)
- go peninsula check out green day shirts
- go HMV check out new stuff
- maybe go see movie
- home, sleep.....
i don't know it'll happen or not. if not. i'll sleep till i feel no more tired.
green green green:)at
10:43 pm
Tuesday, March 02, 2004
listen to No Use For A Name - Friends Of The Enemy. the bass rocks!
wrote some shit the day before yesterday. just couldn't find time to update it. so here it is...
Oh Girl
Oh Girl, you look so fine
Every second, you're on my mind
You're the dream girl I want
Are we going to have some fun?
Oh Girl, I dreamt about you tonight
We went to a nicest place
Enjoying a sky view of a beautiful sight
Which nothing could replace
Oh Girl, you look so pretty
Would you go out with me?
All I want is a dream come true
Just want to be with you
don't quite like it. sounds abit like lovey dovey. but oh well.. at least i wrote something. comments?
green green green:)at
10:09 pm
