ITE, IT'S really THE END?
what a day to start a new week. i feel as if all the things i've done is all without thinking. i'm having trouble with my course. teachers suck! fuck them. they don't teach properly, one day if i really cannot take it, i'll write a letter myself to the course manager. the course manager can also fuck himself. fucking hell. we had a test today and i think i'm going to stay back for the next 6 months listening to that asshole again. i seriously think i chose the wrong course. i can't even fucking do a simple math calculation. some of my friends were also sad about their o level results. damn sad for them also. some say want to repeat, some still thinking. whatever they do, just think hard and choose what really interests them. i've really really screwed my life. felt so miserable today...
and on top of that, i just received a message about me playing in the div 3. everyone is either playing div 1 2, and better still premier. i was playing for the premier and although i didn't play most matches, it's fun being in the team. now i'm demoted back to div 3. i am a big time failure. i thought 2005 was going fine. argh. fuck.
green green green:)
at 9:44 pm
Sunday, February 27, 2005
i think blogging might help. i'm having the worse feeling now. i hate being sad on a happy. zoo outing was fun. the cake was really nice. i'm sad not because i just lost my 2 years old pencil case. no one actually spoilt my mood. i think it's just me. FUCK ME.
the only thing that makes me feel easy is just an old song from Sister Hazel - Change Your Mind.
i wish all my sec 4 sec 5 friends best of luck for tomorrow's O Level results. may the force be with you!
i like to thank those wonderful friends of mine who were in the zoo just now, it was damn happening. we'll have this kinda thing again i hope. the cake was really really nice. anything with chocolate it's what i like. we really had fun. *2 thumbs up*
my mood really went down the toilet bowl la. i feel fucked. i feel useless. it's just me.
lastly, Happy Birthday johan! i can't wait till it's 12 coz i'm too sleepy. anyway have fun tomorrow!
Hey, Hey
Did you ever think
There might be another way
To just feel better,
Just feel better about today
Sister Hazel - Change Your Mind
green green green:)
at 11:32 pm
Saturday, February 26, 2005
the boredom of having a one hour lunch break.
green green green:)
at 11:24 pm
i just like famous amos!
woke up quite early today to get ready and head off to Dover ITE coz they had open house there. the school was much bigger than my school la. walked around there, went to check out the courses there and being a typical singaporean, i mati-mati(die die) thought that there'll be free gifts or souvenirs or something la. but NOOOOO.. all i have is just some handy book to see which courses are available there. so anyway, i thought about it if i could go higher nitec or poly. but i have to aim my gpa at least 2.7 or better still make it 3.5 so i have options to make it to the poly or higher nitec. but first we concentrate on getting high points for my gpa. i suck at studying. hahaha..
so we had our lunch at jurong point. a very nice place to go. i think that shopping centre is fucking big la. well at least for some neighbourhood shopping centre. banquet food is damn feeling la. the only not feeling part is that your money also gone just like that. then walked around to check out the place. to me, it was damn huge la. ohh ya, i didn't know that the idea to walk around was to actually find a birthday present but being me la i walk to the mrt station and only reaching jurong east i realised i forgot to buy present. nevermind tomorrow still got time to find i hope. hahahaha.
we're going to ZOO tomorrow and see my friends, ahhh meeeengs! i got 4 extra tickets so i asked tracy, mei ping, benji and johan along, but benji last minute screw up so i'm gonna ask ahmad and see if he's free tomorrow. hanis and siti will also be joining us. i think it'll be quite fun since i've never really walked around the zoo before although i've been working there for like 3 months already. oh well.. i'm damn bored la. i've been staring at the computer for almost 2 hours already. listening to the music does not help, eating famous amos also not helping.
ohh my napfa test is getting worse la. i nearly failed my standing broad jump, i cannot do pull ups, i think my shuttle run isn't that good. fuck! now i want to aim 8.00min chey.. no la.. 8.50min at least for my 2.4km. i will!!! bloody hell i'm fucking unfit. i'll surely die when i go NS. eat la! eat.. eat all the chocolate cookies i have. hmm.. i want to watch army daze.
ehh! i still want to watch constantine!!! if like this the answer is watch alone la. well maybe i'll bring my nephew to watch with me. at least i have someone to follow me. unlike you people out there, leave me stranded. don't talk to you all already. BYE!
here's what i typed on my phone when i was bored on the 23/02/2005. the bus journey was damn boring la. wait.. i don't know if it was a bus journey or a train journey. anyways.
Every night
It's a beautiful sight
Although it was covered with dark skies
The stars were still bright
I wish I could be by the beach
Enjoying the sight
Lying down on the sandy beach
Wishing you by my side
Watching the sunrise
Everything is just nice
It'll be so nice if it happens
But it's just an imagination
green green green:)
at 7:13 pm
Friday, February 18, 2005
i feel like watching constantine.(correct not spelling?) it's been a LONG BLOODY TIME since i went to the cinemas. (anybody want to go watch can simply tag me on my green green doodleboard!!) i don't want to watch alone. not fun. haha. anyway have a nice weekend everyone!
green green green:)
at 10:33 pm
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
hold on, if you feel like letting go
hold on, it' gets better than you know
total defense day was today and so afew classes from my school were selected to go to suntec for some total defense thingy. and that unlucky class had to be mine. i didn't mind going suntec and all but ohh boy.. we came there just to look at some shitty exhibits and then we're allowed to go home. whatthefuck? the worse part about the excursion was that there's this few of them who made BIG BIG BIG fools la of themselves. damn damn embarrassing la. haiyoh.. people already look down on our school and yet there's this few bunch making fools out of themselves. with the uniform somemore. THINK THINK THINK! WE'RE CALLED ITE COLLEGE NOW BUT THE PEOPLE DON'T LOOK LIKE THEIR FROM ONE. ohh well i just wanna learn hard, study hard, pass my exams, try to go higher nitec or poly, then go NS. get married and live happily ever after, then take up the NIE PE teacher course, find a full time work, hopefully work as a part time PE teacher and still play hockey at the age of 40s. THE END.
anyway, one of the building drafting classes went to suntec also :D hahahahaha! but it didn't make any difference. after that afew of us had our lunch at marina square food loft. the food was damn feeling. at least it lasted from 3pm plus all the way till now. im feeling hungry now. i better go find something.
green green green:)
at 8:28 pm
Saturday, February 12, 2005
finally, i had my long rest. so i'm up now, feeling not very fresh still but hopefully ready for the match later. it's our semi finals now and i hope we win this and head on to finals and get the gold. it will be my 2nd gold for this year. we're the ivp champions too. anyway, i can totally forget about the premier division. i just have to concentrate and work hard on my hockey. i want to be like my father. some sportsmen la. at least try to get into the development squad with some recommendation. i have to impress them by playing well in today's game. that is if also i start out the first 11 today.
CNY at Zoo was fun. being me, first time working, i encountered all sorts of customers. i hate those want to act high class and shit like that. and those fucking mat salehs who gets angry for some small shit. it's really irritating la.. at that moment you just felt like taking out your badge and slap their faces la. argh! and those rich bastards who can't even afford to buy carpark tickets just because their free carpark tickets were not entitled anymore maybe because expired or some shit. but i wonder why they can afford to buy one big fucking family car or some big grand BMW and some other cars la.. ohh ya.. remember i said the first day of CNY was quite alot of people. the second day of CNY was even worse! i punched in at 1030, got dress and ready adn all, when i started to enter the entrance, it was like a war going on sial! the minute i stepped in, i was assign to something, straight away tearing tickets. alot of those bangla workers. but it was fun. i think the double pay should be worth it. :)
green green green:)
at 9:36 am
Thursday, February 10, 2005
fuck, it's humiliating when you don't even know simple math. i suck at calculation. i'm in the wrong course. i think i'm going to screw my future. SHIT! i can't work as a cashier, i think i can't work in the zoo now! FUCK.
... find out the next episode.
green green green:)
at 8:51 pm
tired. zoo was packed today! can die la do entrance, guest asking you from all directions. left, right, centre, back, kanan, kiri, depan, belakang. the number of people coming in was alot la. then got no break you know, it guest keep comes in like tap water like that. DON'T THEY BLOODY KNOW IT'S A HOLIDAY! GO CELEBRATE CHINESE NEW YEAR, GO EAT SHARK FIN! GO EAT ANYTHING, EAT THOSE MANDARIN ORANGEs OR WHATEVER YOU CALL THEM UNTIL YOU GO TOILET NON STOP! whahahahaha!
what am i complaining about? i'm gonna get double pay! goodness. tomorrow will be another madness. i wish i could go on telling about just now but nah.. i'll continue next time. i had fun, i stood all day tearing tickets, swiping the FOZ(friends of zoo) card, doing the countlist for admission , giving out magnets for children, carrying the strollers and wagons, in and out. wahhhhhhhhhhhhh siii buay song ahh! tomorrow is surely mati mati, tentu mati. if today already can die, what's tomorrow?
till next time, this is GR M. Johan telling his wonderful experience about his CNY at the zoo. ADIOS AMIGOS, AKU BAIK BERAMBOS, MARI KITA MINUM YEOS! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! YAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM SEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGG!
and please enjoy this great old skool song from my sister's era. when she lovvvvveees to listen to PUUUUUURRRFECT 10 at that time. i was only K2 then. it's call ace of base, the sign. ANJOY! ENJOY, INJOY, UNJOY!
green green green:)
at 1:35 am
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
i am very tired since yesterday's macritchie cross country training. my timing suck la. nevermind i shall work on it. i am working tomorrow so must have nice nice rest for tomorrow. DOUBLE PAY PEOPLE, I'M WORKING ON 2 BLOODY DAYS. WHEEEEE! thebad part is that i don't get to go out and spend time with friends. i'm drifted away la.. far away from my friends. oh well.. anyway i think i better stop here.. continue some other time. i'm very tired. as for all my chinese friends, Selamat Hari Raya Cina. Gong Xi Fa Cai. Happy Lunar New Year. ok in tamil i don't know how they say it but anyways, ENJOY YOUR HOLIDAYS fools. i'm working my ass off...
green green green:)
at 7:44 pm
Saturday, February 05, 2005
serious man. i think after work, all you really need is just a hot bath and then you make yourself hot or cold milo. then you'd probably be in nanaland. serious.. anyway, i've yet to make my hot milo. so work was as usually. got my pay today. i was working in the childrens' play and animal land. you know the only best part about working in that place is that you get the whole booth to yourself and my most favourite one is that the scenery of the mandai reservoir is damn nice. especially in the late morning and when it's going to sunset. if i was free, all i just want is my wonderful writing book and a pen to make some wonderful poem. i really love it la. you can surely think of something to write. especially something romantic. soo nice!!!
next time if i really have the time, i would really do that. it's damn bloody nice i tell you. sometimes, it'll be quite windy. so anyway, back to where i was working. childrens' world isn't that bad. the booth was cleaner than the one at animal land. that one i don't bother staying there long. you know in childrens' world they have this bubble bowl place for the kids. hahaha.. well, all my colleagues said that place is hell. well not today, lucky me today bubble bowl wasn't as chaotic as what they described. haha. ok.. that was today, tiring. i'm going to make myself a milo soon.
tomorrow, we're going to hunt for oriental suits for CNY at zoo. i'm working on both days. yipeee! double pay pleaseeee! wa lao. i think if you work hard, the outcome is VONDERFUL! FAHHHBULOUS! okok, i'm not going any further coz i might think if i go on, things might cork up. ok off to make myself milo.
OHH! electrico cd is nice. i bought them. hanis bought kings of convenience and he's going to lend me. WAHAHAHA! stone music is nice to listen after work. alright, i'm outta here. OHH ya one last thing, go listen to Sheryl Crow's old song. All I Wanna Do. adios..
green green green:)
at 9:56 pm
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
ok this was what happened the last few days. i'm just going to put it in point form.
1. we won our sunday match and we're in the semis, ontop of that, we got free dinner at the clubhouse. :)
2. i feel sad, still, about not being selected in the premier team. i'm playing div3.
3. we won our last ivp match against tp 16-1. i hope we will get the gold again for the 2nd time in a row. and i played well, i assisted one goal. whee! i hope to maintain like this in u21 matches.
4. i'm gonna eat, sleep, dream, love, die, hockey. :) i gonna try to work on my hockey and probably end up in national trainings. it would be the happiest thing, event, whatever.. in my life! one of my few wonderful dreams. wahhh.. then i can be like my father, a true sportsman.
5. i hate school to finish at 5 plus almost everyday. i just don't get enough rest.
6. i'm unfit, i need to run, run, run, run.
7. i'm getting paid this saturday, but not much since i didn't work much last month. at least it's still money.
8. i'm still hoping to get my new GREEEEEEEEEEEEN specs. whahahahaha!
9. this is nonsense, i could've type this out not in point form but heck la since i already typing it out.
10. the end.
green green green:)
at 10:47 pm
