Saturday, January 31, 2004
what have I done?
what have i done? that's just not me. what happened? we were having a match against chenab when suddenly this maniac keeper gave a flying tackle and left me with a wonderful impact of it. ok. so
maybe it was my fault coz i retaliated. but them assuming that i kicked the keeper, that was nonsense. ok so this was what happened. there's this fellar who came up to me and told me wait till the end of the game. you're gonna get it. ok that wasn't it la. i got my first ever yellow card for throwing temper. darn it.
ok so after the match. that fellar and that maniac keeper waited fo me the in changing room. damn at that point. i was damn scared man. so i told mr malik about it and he followed along into the changing room. the other coach also came along to resolve this shit which i don't think it'll end. so so the coach says whatever that was on the pitch, forget it. so we all shook hands which wasn't really sincerely from them. i knew they wanted to do something to me. ok not over yet. they waited for me outside the main gate. ok that part i knew some serious shit was going to happened. so both of them assumed that i kicked the keeper which i i definately didn't kick. so the keeper made a deal. you kicked me on the pitch and i kick you back for kicking me. how's that?
so in order to end this fucking shit. coz they said i won't disturb you no more if i kick you.. so they kicked me. ya very childish man this kinda stuff. it's not manly at all. hmmm gangsters just want to get it until they're satisfied. damn a lesson to learn.so my mother told me to make a police report which i did and i hope this shit won't continue forever. i just want it to be forgotten, drfited away, far far away, vanished, disappear, GONE FOREVER!
damn i'm so pale. i just wish i had done nothing. not even play that crucial game. i'm such a dick. a lesson to be learnt. damn this shit will never be off my mind. some serious shit jus occured me.
green green green:)at
10:40 pm
Friday, January 30, 2004
It has been a long day man. was out with ahmad and hanis coz hanis wanted to buy turf shoes in queensway but he didn't manage to get it. first, he has only $50 with him and the shoes cost $55-60. second, there's no size for him. well had school just now not really tiring today coz there wasn't any practical. lucky us. so we were in the class all the way. it's air-conditioned too! how nice. when we have practical, we wear our dustcoats on and we sweat like nobody's business. coz there's only fans to keep us cool enough.
was listening to no doubt's Running on my way back home. really got inspired by that song. i am really motivated. like i'm ready for tomorrow's game. it's against chenab at 5. hmm.. i guess my friends have a match earlier coz it's sajc vs sas. how fun. i asked danker if i could join along and play but he said i could only watch. hmm wonder why. anw tomorrow's match. i feel like i'm ready for it. i must think i'm going to score a goal. which i don't know i will or not. it depends all on tomorrow's game at ccab. we'll be playing against senthil and his clubmates. we really do hope to win. anyway shall leave with the no doubt lyrics. Running. it's really nice and all.
Run
Running all the time
Running to the future
With you right by my side
Me
I'm the one you chose
Out of all the people
You wanted me the most
I'm so sorry that I'm falling
Help me up lets keep on running
Don't let me fall out of love
Running, running
As fast as we can
Do you think we'll make it?
(Do you think we'll make it?)
We're running
Keep holding my hand
So we don't get separated
Be
Be the one I need
Be the one I trust most
Don't stop inspiring me
Sometimes it's hard to keep on running
We work so much to keep it going
Don't make me want to give up
Running, running
As fast as we can
Do you think we'll make it?
(Do you think we'll make it?)
We're running
Keep holding my hand
So we don't get separated
green green green:)at
9:34 pm
Tuesday, January 27, 2004
Let's start of with the weather. as you all know it has been raining these few days. ain't in fun? yea it may get effed-up sometimes because you're planning to go somewhere and it's raining. but look on the bright side. the weather's cold. most of times, i'll be complaining about the heat. alright.. enough with the weather. hmm.. school today was tiring.. tiring as in really tiring. finished our very first assignment.. and guess what? i failed. ya.. that's effed-up. i've never done badly in my technical studies. i can proudly say that again. ya.. and this was my first time that i've failed.. well the assignment now is getting harder and the machine is freaking complicated. ok there's three machinings we're doing; grinding, milling and turning. i bet you all don't know a shit unless you're taking D&T.
so ya i failed. really sad about it. the instructor mark very very strictly. i got to work my ass out if i want to find myself in the Aerospace course. oh ya.. they had a talk about that course this morning. remember the attitude test i took. ya.. there's 200 people in the course i'm in and around 50-60 passes only. i think i'm one of them who failed coz most of the answers were incorrect and i'm not supposed to answer if i'm not sure if it's right or wrong. so i guess they deducted alot of marks. sad sad. but the good thing to hear at least that they'll only choose the people at the end of year. so we still have chance.
today's practical was damn scary. most of the machines were malfunctioning. alot of the tool were broken half way doing. damn. i hate the turning machine. i have to check everything first before you start that machine. and my assignment today i did was on turning. darn it. hmm there's practical again tomorrow and we got loads of workpieces to be done by the end of march, april there? ya around there. coz the whole month of may. i think we're getting ready for the exams. oh ya.. did i ever mentioned. my course doesn't have holidays. only 2 weeks of holiday around there.
'seronok kan?'
they had the announcement about the hockey selection and they said we're going to have a friendly either tomorrow or thursday. i guess it's on thursday coz there's no one message me yet. oh ya. there's training tomorrow too. annnnnnnd i'm not looking forward again for some dumb reason. anyway i shall leave with a writing i wrote just now. i was feeling bored obviously. enjoy reading.
A cold cold night
I'm lying on my bed
I'm feeling so uptight
What's in my head?
A cold cold night
I couldn't sleep tonight
I'm always having doubts
What's these all about?
A cold cold night
I wish I'm alright
I shall be fine by tomorrow
There shall be no more sorrows
green green green:)at
10:04 pm
Sunday, January 25, 2004
damn.. the whole day today was cloudy. not fun at all. definately not. i'm hoping tomorrow will be a fucking sunny day. i want to do P.E. so that after we're done with our napfa test.. then only we could play soccer or any other sports. and i'm still waiting for a call for the selections. i don't wanna miss out any of the hockey stuff happening.. fuck.. i better go see the P.E. head again.. dickhead. i am very unfit. i'm lazy, i'm eating alot, i'm stuck in this freaking comp for long enough.. hmm what else.. and i'm getting bored of playing cs. and fuck.. i just remembered.. i have homework to do. lucky me the school starts at 1 tomorrow.
ooh ya.. yeah yeah yeahs..nice music. though the singers screams and screams but i like the music.. if only she hadn't scream. thanks johan for lending me. anyway it's with hanis now. i better get my ass of now.. been here for too long. way too long. the use of broadband isn't helping me at all. my mother's gonna scream.. and oh ya.. i can't wait till it's thursday.. i can't wait to get my new specs.. it's just a new specs and i'm going gaga over it. okok.. enough crapping.
green green green:)at
11:03 pm
yeah yeah yeahs!
green green green:)at
7:15 pm
Saturday, January 24, 2004
rain rain go away,
johan wants you to come another day.
you know.. it's really fuckthup when you're all planned up, all geared up for the sun, the sand and the sea.. and it's raining the whole day. so much for the relaxing and stuff like that. oh well so this is what i did to spend my saturday. went to causeway point to get my specs done.. and went back home waited for ahmad's call coz i planned to watch movie.. so i asked hanis and benji along coz they just finished their self gym training. so met ahmad at woodlands.. made our way to yishun. met hanis and benji.. couldn't get johan to come along.. i guess he's working..
so we went to yishun 10 and the place was totally booked. so we went back to woodlands coz benji die die wanted to play pool. and we went there also got no place.. so we went all the way to ang mo kio and voila..we were playing for 2 hours. annnnnnnnnnnnd i suck in that freaking game.i totally suck in it.. benji and ahmad was the only good ones there.. pro.. oh ya.. hanis also.. only that he doesn't wants to show.. so i guess the guy who spoilt everything was me.. i'm sorry guys for my fuckthup attitude... oh ya.. i can't wait to get my new specs.. can't can't wait wait for for it it!
rain rain go away,
johan wants you to come another day.
green green green:)at
11:27 pm
Friday, January 23, 2004
i am not addicted to The Beatles - Hello Goodbye. it's a nice melodic song. and i'm still waiting for the ITE combined.. i hope i get chosen but i guess not. the first match is on february. and there's still no call for the selection. i'm really hoping they'll call. i don't wanna have no cca in ITE. i gotta stay fit. and if i wanna join other cca.. it'll be too late. besides.. i don't think i'm really committed to my club now.. after some shit happened. oh well.. i hope it'll be a sunny day tomorrow.. i finally decided to get out of the house. but only if ahmad, hanis and all not coming my house.. coz i didn't know they wanted to come over to watch lotr. i'm feeling guilty as usual. i don't know we'll see tomorrow.
green green green:)at
10:34 pm
st anger round my neck.
st anger round my neck.
he never gets respect.
st anger round my neck.
green green green:)at
8:30 pm
look! i'm a genius! i've finished putting 2 photo albums. and yes they're screwed up but who cares.. the pictures are up.. i'm so proud of myself. oh ya.. Good Charlotte's album is a kick ass! people who don't bother downloading.. but it! drag your ass down to any of the music store and buy it! alright enough..
the plan for today was to go to the beach.. not to rot at home. fucked. oh well.. going to mosque later.. and hopefully i'll find something to keep me occupied. at least for now the beatles is keep me alive.i like Hello Goodbye by them. very nice. oh ya.. pls do drop by and sign my gb to comment on the photos which are up on the side links.
<----------------------------- right there. look at those photos and sign my GB! NOW!!
green green green:)at
11:17 am
Thursday, January 22, 2004
alright. i have 3 days of holiday. i am going to make use of it one of those.. yes i am going down to the beach. been wanting to go since the december holidays right after my birthday. but no. it got screwed. so it's either tomorrow or saturday. sunday i don't think so coz i prefer to be free on that day in case anyone asks me out.. (yeah like that's going to happen..)
and so it's the Chinese New Year. been rotting at home.. playing cs. downloading the oldies..and tried to finish reading my Chris Rock book.. it's going to finish soon.. i hope. oh ya.. about downloading... i dowloaded the the Good Charlotte album. yes i'm spoiling the music industries again. like what hanis said. we gotta help the music industries so that celebrities like britney and christina could make their boobs bigger and bigger.. oh well anw.. i downloaded just an album.. so it doesn't matter i guess.
was listening to rufio. they're nice.. was finding for their album - 1985 in HMV.. couldn't find it. hmm. maybe should try gramophone. been trying to write something from just and i couldn't.. i can't write no more. maybe coz my life's fucked now.. well well.. it's back to boooorrrrriiiiinnnngggg.
green green green:)at
9:41 pm
Wednesday, January 21, 2004
i guess everyone as in most of my friends are out right now. no i mean RIGHT NOW! they're out in town or anywhere else.. enjoying or whatever. me? i'm relaxing at home. not because i'm tired or anything but i don't know just felt like stayig at home today. well school ended at 12+, then played soccer for awhile with my classmates. got to know that our next u21 match is against chenab. i hope we'll win that game. i really do. i'm still disappointed of some people leaving the club and all but who am i to convince them? it's their wish. i can't help it. oh well like i said, if only we had our last year's SCC Cubs Team we should be able to show something. but sad.. just really sad. after many years of playing hockey with them.. and just like that they're gone.
speaking about hockey.. i'm waiting for a call from the ITE combined selection. i asked the P.E head and he said to wait for a call. so if i get chosen for the ITE combined squad.. our first match will be against NYP. last year ITE got second. i wonder who got first. hmm was it raining just now? look! the sun is bright. hmm thinking of going to sentosa but i guess my money's not enough unless i go for free and easy.. i don't know.. i know nuts about sentosa.. all i know is that it's 'Island Life, Love it!' been spending alot especially food.. and of coz not forgetting CDs. i think i've been eating alot lately coz in school there are 3 breaktimes.. and i end up buying food on each of the breaktime.
my fitness is going down down down. i don't think i could sprint no more. especially in my hockey matches. i'll be always sprinting here and there and i only got tired for awhile.. but now.. is different. i wonder why. i'm going to be a Fat Johan back.. anw.. my stomach's making noise. i'm hungry. my mother bough briyani.. sedap..... and to all my chinese friends again. GONG XI FA CAI! happy chinese new year! this is johan signing off... and back to the studio.
green green green:)at
4:59 pm
Tuesday, January 20, 2004
this is how it goes. got to know my english O levels entrance test. and i got 17/50. the highest is 31/50 and he's from my class. the highest in all ITE west. cool. well there's an enrichment class for those who took the test. well i didn't take it. anw.. had practical today. and it was.. tiring... my fingers are all having those small cuts. too bad we don't use gloves. the machines are different from the ones in sas. they're much complicated. oh well...
tomorrow's the eve of chinese new year. and my school ends around inthe afternoon. hmm i still don't know if i should take to O levels programme.. seems like there'll be no hockey this whle week.. a dull week.. and after that is back to all those busy stuff again. it's always like that.. anw.. to all my chinese friends, Happy Chinese New Year in advance!
green green green:)at
9:47 pm
Monday, January 19, 2004
sheila on 7's Melompat Lebih Tinggi. power man that song. kick ass. go download. hmmm haven't been blogging lately.. well remember about the aerospace attitude test? i think screwed it up. don't think i could qualify for aerospace. damn scared waiting for the results. ooh ya.. ytd we had a match against the CSC A. we lost.. didn't bother counting. anw it was expected. well had been hectic week last week. i hope it won't be for this week. waiting for the ITE combined selection. waiting if we qualify for the u21 plates. waiting for the aerospace results.
green green green:)at
6:44 pm
Friday, January 16, 2004
i've decided to blog today coz though today was tiring but it's alright. after this i can have my meal and its me and my soft pillows and my matress. yes not bed. or maybe shall entertain derrick with his CS coz he said to play online CS tonight. hmm we shall see how long does johan lasts. anw.. ITE is fuckthup because of the "unsupportive" (is there any such word?) teachers. but it's ok. my classmates are quite interesting. more or less like my old class.. but the boring part, no girls to disturb.... wait.. i don't even have the balls to disturb girls. i don't know about my other classmate though. quite a few people i know and they're interactive.
today's theory didn't listen to that fellar teaching at all.. what was his name again? book was opened and i was daydreaming. how fuckthup. well was talking to the classmate and daydreaming. so didn't get anything into my head. i wonder how i'm gonna operate that freaking machine on monday. damn that machine. so many buttons to remember. so many gadgets and all.
tomorrow they have this aerospace attitude test. i wonder what it is.. have to be there by 0845. then later got some extra class.. hmm guess i won't be going out tmr. damn.. i think i better go. i'm hungry and tired. sorry derrick if i'm not online to play with you CS.
-as usual life's fuckthup coz i'm fucking it up-
green green green:)at
7:42 pm
Thursday, January 15, 2004
This Is How It Goes - Billy Talent. <-- go listen. very nice noisy song.
i gotta get use to this 8-5 thingy. been falling asleep during theory lessons. and don't have a place to sit for our practical.. 8-5.. wa lao.. except our breaks. lucky they have 3 breaks for us but still that's not enough. tmr school ends at 10-11.. anw school isn't bad but life's still not going as planned. hockey trgs are getting useless nowadays. yesterday came for trg not knowing there was a friendly match against the jansenites. only the lions team knew about it. biased. so sad. ok that was nothing. the best part. i didn't play for the whole game. am not surprised.. brought my friends along too coz they wanted to join a club. hope they all could get ready by the next tournament. that'll be u18 which also i'm not looking forward. wait.. i don't look forward to anything now do i?
the next match's on 18th. ain't looking forward either. the only forwards will be me and sean. and maybe gursharn. hanis's injured. doubt he'd be back to play for that game. deepan's totally gone for jansenites. benji's still thinking if he wants to leave the club.. kandhiban rarely turns up for trgs... and me.. play like a fuckthup fool. i don't know.. we'll see how it goes on that day itself.
green green green:)at
10:02 pm
Tuesday, January 13, 2004
tired. 8-5 is quite tiring. bought the hoobastank cd today. i am so tired to blog and i'm still online. i shall blog another day or maybe not.....
green green green:)at
10:38 pm
Monday, January 12, 2004
what the fuck is wrong with me? tears just kept rolling ad rolling. i'm hurt hurt hurt. guess 2004 is really a sad year. so much for looking forward to it. so much for getting into the singapore hockey squad.. so much for aiming high in my studies.. infact it's not high either.. i wonder how i'd end up if i didn't screw my life. fuck.. just fuck. i don't wanna stop typing. i wish it goes on and on. this is my most terrible day or should i say in advance a fuckthup year.. i don't know why.. although it may seem just the 3rd week? and i'm already saying all these. i wrote something but i deleted it. don't want to remember.
ya agree life's never fine. ya i get screwed sometimes. but this year.. since the start of the first day of a new year i knew something bad, worse was going to happen. i had a quarrel with the whole family right before i received my N results. i knew somehow they were happy for it. i hope they were. but at that time of moment. i felt like giving up in everything. i don't wish to see my next year. yeah.. i rarely talk to my father now.. my sister.. i met derrick and dzul after school just now.. and i happened to be in my pe attire.. felt damn bad about what derrick said.. really shameful.. i'm really hurt.. but it's ok.. i've been a fucking pussy for all my life i guess... every single thing that happens.. has a reason..
green green green:)at
10:01 pm
you gotta go to their website.. they rawk!
www.mrfishtank.com
yup. i bought the adidas boots. annnnnnnnnnd i'm not gonna use it tmr. i can't.. having practical from 8-5. so my new shoes would be in the locker till 5.. and i'm afraid it might get lost. i'm not saying stolen. "lost". anw.. it's nice. it goes well with the uniform. seeetyle....
daymn.. saw more punk rock chicks man! they really look hotzzzz. anw. school started at 1.. ya.. everything was fine.. bu the lesson was boring.. daymn.. theory 3 hours.. the teacher also talk cock and all.. funny fellar.. and as usual got few jokers behind..hahahha oh ya.. there's a guy from my class who wants to join in scc? seeekkiiill ah!
just now on my way to causeway pt.. there's a malay couple sitting infront of me and they were lost. so they asked me in english.. how to get to vista point? and me.. with my english karat.. wa lao.. malu seh.. i'm such a disgrace... well well. gotta go tie my safety shoes.. tmr got practical...
green green green:)at
9:14 pm
Sunday, January 11, 2004
tmr is back to school. and to some, starting school at 1pm is really fun. well it's not. oh well we had a game today i didn't know that it was today coz i checked the fixtures wrongly. so i'm really sorry johan.. don't worry the next game's on 18th.. then you can come. lucky me i only told one person. if i messaged half of the team saying that the next game's on 18th, i'll be dead.
oh ya. came quite late for the match today coz the feeder bus service 912 take so long to come. so.. there's this guy who happened to stand beside me asked me if i happened to go casueway point. so i said ya.. so he asked me to come along.. so i said ok... and he said he was gonna pay for it.. so i did follow him along coz i was late. ok he look like a punk guy but he's nice. he was asking what instruments i played. and i answered keyboard.. and he asked me all those band stuff and all.. he was asking me what kind of music i'm in to.. oh ya.. he listens to guns & roses and metallica i bet there's more he listens to.
so he dropped me off at the taxi stand there. and i walked with him towards the burger king there..ice fellar really.. although he looked skinhead punk and all.. but he's a nice guy.. he said he used to do dramas and all.. he acted in soldadu and all.. remember that show... well i hope to see him soon.. he's fellar.
and about today's match.. it went so well on the first half but after they scored a goal, we lost our composure.. so the second half they started to thrash us.. bloody jc wussies. bunch of fucktup rjc.. damn malu man.. there's this one guy who dribbled pass me like water.. wa lao.. damn.. bastard. oh well.. sportsmanship. shook their hands after the game..
shrugs. i juz wish i had my fun over the years that passed me. but it's all too late............
green green green:)at
10:21 pm
Saturday, January 10, 2004
NOTHING WILL CHANGE UNTIL HE BREAKS HIS LIFE!
green green green:)at
10:49 pm
it's 1+ and i'm still online.. trying to find more about fishtank! they're really nice! should go download of their songs. i like This Pefect Day... they rock! another localband to know wheeeee..
green green green:)at
1:35 am
Friday, January 09, 2004
FISHTANK! listen to them.. they're a localband. just like force vomit, pug jelly and boredphucks and all. but fishtank! MUST FIND THE ALBUM!!!!
green green green:)at
9:59 pm
well here i am.. blogging.. the latest, the oldest what ever that has happened or whatever that's happening. hi i'm mohd johan. and for the nest few hours you'll be reading this boring piece of writing. so you can either stay put and read this or you could just simply go surf other sites or you could just sign my guestbook explaining that this is shit.
ok.. ya it is shit. i have nothing better do.. i'm bored... so haven't been blogging since last tuesday. well.. had loads of stuff in school.. very tiring.. well it's gonna be tiring for next freaking 2 years.. or maybe more that is if i fail any of my modules. hmm what are modules? well it's something like a subject. once you failed, you stay back 6 months to pass that module. once you passed.. you move to the next one. and it goes on and on.. and my course usually ends around 4 or 5 there.. so it's gonna be tiring alright.. today they had a talk about my course.. my course is called precision engineering. it's divided into 3 parts. The Machining, Tool & Mould and Aerospace. now aerospace sounds familiar right? well there are 200 students taking this course. why? coz mostly they're going for aerospace and that includes me. wheee.. so the 1st year we're going to learn the basic stuff about Tool & Mould, Machining and Aerospace. IF some of us do well for this year.. get top 5% we could move on to aerospace. if not it's either machining or tool & mould. i know everyone is aiming for aerospace. and aerospace only allows 64 students in it.. that means only 2 classes. fuck right?
so in order to get in. i must get top 5% to enrole for the aerospace class. daymn.. i don't know if i could get in the top 5% either.. well IF i cannot get it.. i'll go machining. but we'll see how.. i'll try my best. i will.. ok so today was the talk about the course. they're actually explaining about the aerospace course. oh ya.. and guess what.. when you all having fun during holidays and all.. we work our asses out! also fuckthup right? but it's ok. i'm fine with it. we do loads of stuff. from fixing the aircraft body to fixing the airplane toilet. whatever about repairing or fixing the mechinical stuff or whatever shit that's broken.. we fix it.. but i'm ready for anything as long as i get in that course on my 2nd year. I MUST!
bought all my uniform.. have to change my pants to a bigger size coz it was way too tight for me. oh well.. anw.. the best part of being in my class is that our monday lessons starts at 1pm.. 3 hours of theory and after that is sports. muahahhaha.. oh ya.. speaking of sports. a friend from my class used to play hockey.. cool eh? he's from commonwealth sec. we already wrote our names for the ITE combined squad. i don't know if i could get in for the selection or not.. the bad part of being in my class is that wait.. no bad parts for being in my class.. except to be in the school. i feel so lonely sometimes whenever is break time. no more secondary school where i could meet all my friends in the cafeteria talking loads of shits and stuff like that, my hockey friends mainly. that's the sad part.. i feel so lonely in my new school.. but i guess this is all temporary. well i did made friends with quite a few from my class.. but i still haven't got to know the whole class yet.. except for some few jokers.. they're funny la..
took an english o levels entrance test today after school. well it was quite hard. i hope i'll just pass at least. i want to attend for the programme. i couldn't take maths coz i passed on the dot.. so didn't get to take it.. but it's ok.. i just hope to qualify for the english programme. they'll be teaching us o levels. oh well.. anw.. i know all my hockey friends out there doing well in their jcs out there or what so ever now.. they're having fun.. i don't know for me.. but it's no use regretting all these for now.. just live with it.. i gotta go tell myself it'll be fun. well well.. there goes my mother asking me to get off the comp.. so this is johan signing of again. will be back if there's anything to write about. for now, it's back to the studio!
green green green:)at
9:24 pm
Tuesday, January 06, 2004
2nd day of school. it was fun. get to know the place abit better. though i'm sooo lonely. but it was fun. the break is an hour long. you get to do alot of things. well.. i just ate roti john, listened to the strokes, tried to download a game into my hp. and yeah.. i made with 2 friends from my class. how pathetic. first, there's no girls. second. my class seemed so anti-social.. all don't look friendly.. why can't they smile and say "hey, we're gonna be together for the next 6 months. let's all try our best not to screw things up and work together alright?" they should have the spirit. oh well... we'll see tmr how it goes..
hmm.. had loads of stuff happening today.. still no games though.. which is good.. just talk and talk and talk.. but in between some funny stuff happened.. shan't eloborate la.. saw some hot punk rock chicks man! daymn.. they're so punk.. especially with that snickers on.. daymn.. i can't wait go to for the hockey selection. really really loads of stuff happened.. met derrick, dzul and nawfel at tp.. went to have lunch with them coz i ate only roti john the whole day.. how sad.. so we went lj's.. wasn't feeling la.. but heck.. so after that followed dzul to get his new prefect uniform.. had desert there.. ice jelly! sedap....
came home to rush out again coz i wanted to go buy street soccer boots. i know you will go.. "johan? you play soccer? kiss my ass?" hahaha.. well it's for my school use.. just thought that it'll blend in with the uniform.. well can bring for casual also and to play soccer if i happened to have nothing better to do in school coz they have a street soccer pitch!.. how fun. anw.. so i went to causeway to find.. but didn't had my size.. how sad again.. so went home.. got yelled at my mother.. coz i misplaced my leaving cert.. daymn.. but luckily i found it.. lucky me...
haha i can't believe i just scolded my nephew.. wait.. i do scold him sometimes.. anw.. he'svery playful la... didn't want to study or anything.. all he does his do loads of stunts on the couch there.. as if he's wrestling someone.. so i got irritated and started asking him to do his work.. yea.. i don't want him to end up like me. a stupid uncle... no way.. he must have a good life.. not to suffer.. like me.. times like these man.. no such thing as playing around and all.. well.. he's in SAJS.. isn't that good enough? generation pass on pass on.. from grandfather, granduncles, uncle.. to him.. hahahaha.. oh ya! trg tmr.. guess i have to bring my stuff along.. coz i don't know what time school ends tmr.. hmm.. well i'm off now..
green green green:)at
10:38 pm
Monday, January 05, 2004
fountain of wayne - stacey's mom. the song's quite nice. well enough of that. i'm here to update on my first day of school.
well woke up at 7am.. bathe and all. packed up my bag.. left my house close to 8.. the sun was already up by then. very nice.. though the sun was up but it was still cooling.. shiok right? so anw.. waited for the bus.. saw 2 ite students but different campus. both of them. i guess one from yishun and the other from amk.
took the bus to the station. the train reached on time when i got up there. how nice. got in the train. and DAYMN.... the train was so packed. anw.. heck la.. used to it.. so stood there till toa payoh. then took another bus straight to the institute. listening to beatles in the early morning. nice.... very relaxing. oh i was nearly late bus in ite balestier.. i don't think there's such thing as punctuality. but when i reach there.. hahhahha.. most of them was at the front gate puffing in and out. hahahahahaha.. what a first impression of the school there..but heck... so just walked pass them.. then there was a sign new students to the hall.. and the hall is big... big big... and air-conditoned. cool right? SAS wasn't like that. so lucky us.. we didn't played any games or anything. all they did was brief us about the school and all.. and ya! guess what.. they have an anthem. it's called Progress With ITE. hahahahaha! the song old skool rabak punya...
ok la so far everything did went well. hmm.. the school wasn't wonderful la.. but heck again.. oh ya.. my class got no girls. all 34 guys. wheeee.. how wonderful. today the school ended early. not as what i expected.. t ended around 12+ and at that time it was raining.. so stayed for awhile in the school.. freaking packed man i tell u..
so went jalan jalan alone.. find shoes.went penin.. found but didn't know if i wanna buy or not.. being me.. fickle minded.. is just so fuckthup. so i went to the gramophone.bought INSOMNIAC! wheee.. happy me.. one more album to go.. just one more and that's it.. compilation of the whole green day. more updates till tmr.. this is johan signing. back to the studio.
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6:42 pm
Sunday, January 04, 2004
man. tired tired tired. tmr's schooling for me. i wish i won't screw myself or anything. The Beatles - Twist And Shout, Good Charlotte - Hold On. both wonderful songs to listen to. had a game against police and we obviously lost. 7-0. what a thrashing. well i played like shit. yeah really. ain't surprised. well this what i must do if i wanna improve.
1. change my playing attitude
2. heck those people shouting at me
3. don't belagak
4. don't old on to the ball long
5. stop passing blindly
6. don't be nervous
7. stop filling my mind with doubts
8. play my normal game
9. learn to hit the fucking ball
10. stop running forward when i get the freaking ball
actually there's more but i don't bother. sad man. how am i going any further when i;m like this. heard mr danker saying about some of you will never go any further. will only be stuck at that level of improvement. sad. i really want to play hockey. i can't just give up like that after close to 9 years. i must be good in it now. or at least i should know how to play hockey. got yelled at just now. "johan, what? you playing like you just started playing hockey. i guess i got yelled the most. being a forward isn't easy. made 3 silly mistakes. wait. i think i made more than 3 mistakes. but best part of the match today. i was feeling happy because i did that shielding turn, that one touch turning. that was nice. well you all definately don't know what the hell i'm talking about.
plan for tmr, wake up at 7. bathe and all. get out of the house by 0745-0800. i should reach there close to 9. abit scared la but what the heck. hmm i wonder what time the school ends. hmm.. might go down to city hall tmr to get my insomniac. they're selling it at $18.90. quite reasonable la. see how. i might go down to borders to check kerplunk there.
wednesday scc trg. 6-9. 3 hours trg. that is what i call trg. i guess i'll be bringing my stuff to school. hmm if i have time.. guess i'll be walking ard anywhere.. most probably hmv.. check out some new bands and all. i guess i should be buying the uniform and all tmr.
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10:31 pm
Saturday, January 03, 2004
i don't know why the hell i'm feeling so alive.. but i'm feeling it man! i'm feeling soo hhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaapppppppppppppppppppppppyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! i wonder why. but who'd give a fuck about it! this is me! i'm feeling alright~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~.. wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~ and the strokes's rocking on my comp!
yes yes. obviously now. i'm looking forward to everything! hell yeah everything! firstly. tmr's hockey match. second my new school. i bet there's gonna be lots of interesting people there. i hope they're into psychedelic stuff. oh ya! read what i wrote ytd.. no wait.. it's this morning.. nice eh? i don't know but it's sounds nice to me. gotta find some songs like hot hot heat, the strokes, cato salsa experience and all.. something to keep the whole night alive. something jumpy, catchy, music. happy mode stuff! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. this is happy johan signing off. adiossss.
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11:31 pm
how do u put a gallery link? teach me! anyone!
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8:47 pm
We're Going Retro
A boring day to start of with
Sun shining though my window
Wouldn't it be nice to be at the beach
Doing the a-go-go
Let's get into our bell-bottoms
Let's get retro
Get on into the hair do
Get on into the 70s
We're going to get wild
Coz we're doing it the 70s style
Here I am,
Everything's rocking
But where's the band?
We're all here waiting
The girls in their polka dots
The guys trying to look hot
Everyone's in their nice outfits
Everyone's getting into the beat
We're going to party
Let's all get jiggy
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11:17 am
The Grouch - Green Day
I was a young boy that had big plans.
Now I'm just another shitty old man.
I don't have fun and I hate everything.
The world owes me, so fuck you.
Glory days don't mean shit to me.
I drank a six pack of apathy.
Life's a bitch and so am I.
The world owes me, so fuck you.
Wasted youth and a fistful of ideals.
I had a young and optimisitic point of view.
Wasted youth and a fistful of ideals.
I had a young and optimisitic point of view.
I've decomposed, yet my gut's getting fat.
Oh my god I'm turning out like my dad.
I'm always rude.
I've got a bad attitude.
The world owes me, so fuck you.
The wife's a nag and the kid's fucking up.
I don't have sex `cause i can't get it up.
I'm just a grouch sitting on the couch.
The world owes me, so fuck you.
nice song eh? green day likes to sing nonsense. this of one of those.
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12:16 am
Friday, January 02, 2004
alright. when i was walking back from the naval base mosque. i see alot of students in their school uniform. i can't wait to go to my new school. i see everyone soooo happy. i guess they must be enjoying school life back again. yes yes. and yall will go. 'dumbass, people hate school life." i don't mind actually. my aim is to do my very best in there so that i can move on. hmm things that worries me is that i don't know if i could get in the ite combined hockey squad. secondly, i'm not sure if i'm really posted to aerospace.
oh well, i'll have work my ass out for those! hmm i'm getting jealous already. people starting school back again and here i am.. bum. so monday is the day. going to a new place. ITE Balestier. bit nervous but ya. i should be ready for it.
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10:16 pm
ok it's only 2:30pm in the afternoon and i'm feeling damn bored.
woke up to see my nephew in his SAJS uniform. hahaha. generation pass on pass on. guess he's coming back home 7+. i remembered when i was in pri one. i know most of yall reading this wondering shouldn't i be in school. well, my school starts on monday. i hope i'll make friends there. bad, good. who cares. just find somebody to talk to. well well. sunday we're having our first u21 game. really looking forward to it. i hope i'll play smartly. not just run around. tmr. i'm not sure. thinking of watching lotr but i'm not sure. see how tonight.
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2:47 pm
Thursday, January 01, 2004
and i find myself online again. daymn. what's with the freaking daymn? i wonder.
so leaving sas. where it all happens. friends, enemies, everything. secondary school is where everything starts and i guess it ends there. just like that. now i won't get to see my friends much. no more meeting them every recess talking bulls and craps and everything got to do with life, school and everyday shits. i won't get to meet hanis, ahmad, johan, derrick, dzul, benji, kaanthan, krishin, deepan, nawfel and much more. no more morning assembly. no more chapel, no more friday prayers. those were the times that ended Just Like That.
i miss my class too. no matter how irritating they cld get sometimes. but i guess my class is forever united. we're there for each other. i still remember when that time we got send down for discipline. yall tried to safe my life. and i did the same back to you guys. i really do hope one of my classmates reading this. 4N3. yeah we rock! to hell with the other classes who thinks we can never succeed in anything. they're wrong! very wrong! yes we're slow. but we made it! that will be a memory. all of us have gone our different ways. hope we all don't get into something stupid.
and for sas hockey. oh yeah hell we rock the whole world! for this year's school tournament, i've played my very best. we all did. i scored goals. i am really proud of doing my part for the school. sad that we lost the finals but! we did really play our very best! another memory to be stored in.
the bad times? well, i don't remember much but here's some:
sports day heats - cannot qualify coz the darn prefect cheated! liar!
sports Day - didn't get any trophy coz our second runner screwed up but it's ok. its over.
4N3 - maths lesson. everyone just hates him. but it's ok most of us passed maths.
4N3 - cpa lesson. quarreled with the teacher till i nearly got sent down. fucked.
prelims - cpa paper and eoa paper. nearly screwed up those papers. didn't follow intructions.
well there's more but i couldn't think. well that's about it. 2003. ended. 2004 wheee~
So take the photographs
And still frames in your mind
Hang it on the shelf of good health
And good time
Tattoos of memories
And dead skin on trial
For what it's worth It was worth all the while
I hope you had the time of you life
Green Day - Good Riddance
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1:55 pm
lately i've been glued to this computer. i forgot everything that when passed me. i didn't bother it was a new year. my mother's starting to nag because i don't do much chores at home. i don't finish up my prayers. what else? oh man. i am such a bum. this computer is like "come johan. use the comp. it's all yours. use it till it explodes". ya daymn. i'm feeling so occupied. oh wait. no it's just the computer. anw. there's few more songs updated thanks to daniela. she sent quite a few songs. really nice ones too. daymn. she's really into punk.. and she knows more about all these unknown bands. one of the nicest. Life Size Mirror - No Use For A Name.
ytd i was out. bought a new cap coz my old one got stolen at ccab. take note people. take very good care of every single thing u bring there. the stealers are like crows. bunch of scavenger hunters. they'll take everything valuable, non-valuable. "hey look that must be some girl's undergarment. let's grab it". hahaha. crack ass crackers. so just put your things one side where they can't see it. and daymn. i think im becoming like chris rock. nooooooot. so anw.. we went far east. we, ahmad dzul and i. so search everywhere and still can't find the cap. so we decided to stop by at cahaya to have our lunch there. at 2+ ard there. ate and all. then we decided to go to the 77th street basement. so it was my lucky day. that was the last one. and oh ya!! i saw the mesh cap. billabong. style~. thinking of buying that also. hmm i'm thinking of buying every single shit i see. daymn. why am i going daymn? daymn.
so ahmad left first coz he had an appointment? what appointment? so dzul and i went walking around. we took the train towards marina bay went up saw nothing there but a bus stop, and the highway. so we went back in took the train to somerset coz he said he wants to jalan jalan. so i followed him coz he was gonna meet his girlfriend. so we walked and walked till we reach meridien. he talk to me about feeling sad for his N. well its ok. you'll get there dzul. so met his gf they asked me to come along and join them for dinner at 5? ard there la. actually i didn't want to coz i'll feel like an arsehole. let them have a good time there. but dzul dragged my ass along. so ya. we ate. no they ate. i juzt took some fries from dzul. see i'm such a bum again. so dzul said his gf inviting him to go dinner AGAIN with her family. and he asked ho u're going home. well told him to go ahead and have fun. so i left the place ard 630? hmmm took the train. enjoyed the ride back home coz i was sleeping all the way.. listening to no doubt.
so new year it is. i hope nothing screws up. well i know it will la.. but hope it won't be as bad. into a new school soon! ite balestier here i come. i really want to get in the ite combined squad. NOT FORGETTING the s'pore hockey team! i'm really really pushing myself. i guess? anw. i'm playing for cubs. sad to hear about that. i was hoping to play for lions actually. sad sad. people are leaving the club.oh well there's trg today. better show them what i'm finally made of. ite combined squad. i think it's hard to get in but whatever it is. i'm ready for the challenge. (ok that was bullshit.) oh well well.
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11:46 am
