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Thursday, May 29, 2008

soundtrack: given up - linkin park

i had to skipped work today because my wisdom tooth is hurting. lucky me, my sister works in the woodlands polyclinic as an admin. so she got things done for me and voila, i've gotten an appointment with a dentist. after checking, i got to know that my wisdom tooth is already dead. so i knew first thing on my mind was THE FUCKING INJECTION! and yeah so i had 4 times of injection so numb up my whole mouth. and it lasted for 2 hours, i feel like a retard which i can't swallow my own saliva.

the good news is that the dentist is saying that he's putting a crown on my wisdom tooth so it can still act as a tooth, only now it's not connected to any of my nerves. something like a fake tooth? i don't know. the whole process is called root canal. go find it out in the internet. i also don't know.

the bad news is i have to come back every friday for an appointment to treat my wisdom tooth, it's part of the process. THAT MEANS, I'LL HAVE NEEDLES IN MY GUMS AGAIN! FUCK!

i think i have a family history that none of us maintains good healthy teeth. most of my uncles and aunty have dentures on them at early 30s. that suck. and i just found out one more thing about my family history.. we all don't live long. hahahhaa! that's sad!

ohh ohh.. so i find this song nice.
doesn't it reminds you of your teenage years being a rebel.
listening to no one but yourself.

well it's not that i'm feeling that right now, but the song's good.

green green green:)
at 9:20 pm

Thursday, May 22, 2008

am i just paranoid, or am i just stoned.

green green green:)
at 9:12 pm

Sunday, May 18, 2008

the little things - colbie caillat

sometimes you tend to look back, you'll tear to yourself thinking, it was something you could have done.
sometimes you tend to look back, you'll get angry because because it should not had happened.
sometimes you tend to look back, you'll tear with a smile, thinking it was all a good past.

things will remain that way and i won't want to disturb it.

i have been working alot lately but thank goodness i'm still not falling sick. it's good that i'm not because usually i'll get sick often after working non stop, like body aches and such.

at home, things are falling apart. i'm falling apart. everytime when i reach home, the lights are off, my niece and nephew are not at my place, the house is quiet, the hall is dull, the kitchen is left untouched. my mother's fast asleep.

i just wish for better times. i would want to close my eyes and keep hoping and wishing on that.

god knows why the hell i am still online at this hour when i have to wake for work like few hours later. on top of that, i'm doing both day and night. i honestly think have no life. everyday at work, i'll be staring into nowhere whenever it's lunch time, when the crowd is dying, whenever i'm not doing anything. please tell me what am i searching for? i need to pop myself 2 panadols and off to sleep now. good night singapura.

thank you for everything. i owe infinity. you will be remembered both for the bad and good moments.

green green green:)
at 11:54 pm

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

i hope you had the time of your life.

green green green:)
at 3:01 pm

Saturday, May 03, 2008

every bus rides makes me drift away into something i wished never happened.
every train rides makes me drift away and got me thinking so bad why bother living when my happiness are all crushed.

it's contradicting typing all of these when a person always said;
"isn't this what you have always wanted, planned?"

everytime when i'm all alone walking home from work or anywhere, these unfinished business, unsettled thoughts creeps through my mind from the back and it keeps haunting me. i just don't know where i can actually just get rid all of those.

i know reading my blog is always a boredom because on most entries is all about depression, depression, depression. hahahha.

1/5/2008

that was supposed to be posted long ago.

today i am just hoping pay will be in so i can shop till i drop.
and i failed my traffic police test once more. yay! huuraaahh!

green green green:)
at 1:09 am

Thursday, May 01, 2008

i guess the only word to describe the whole situation is
SAD.
but i don't have any control of anything.
well not at least in this situation.

green green green:)
at 1:09 am