listening to jiwang slow rock on the sunday afternoon is not helping!
anyone with tips how to survive on a boring sunday?
i want to shop! and on the other hand, i need to get fit for tmr's big big physical test!
wish me luck!
green green green:)
at 4:41 pm
Saturday, June 26, 2010
i WANT TO GET ME THIS!
i wonder how much this is..?
green green green:)
at 2:38 pm
Thursday, June 24, 2010
ironic as it is, i am not looking forward to ORD. i don't know why?
my head is a mess now, i have been drowning myself with ciggs and late nights stay ups not doing anything but having a game of staring with the wall.
green green green:)
at 9:56 pm
Monday, June 21, 2010
this was taken quite sometime ago at barrage. and so i decided to write something out of it. this is for a start, after a long break.
i love how dark clouds gather
i love it how the sky turns grey
it will be a nice weather
for a cold one, come what may
no thunders, no lightnings
just heavy clouds and the rain
keep on raining, keep it coming
let it wash away, the stain and the pain
clouds slowly move out and sun shines
leaving everything wet and moist
to dry up and hope everything will be fine
like how it always goes...
green green green:)
at 3:36 pm
so if that is what it is, then i should abide by it.
i'm going to thrash all unwanted thoughts into the recycle bin.
green green green:)
at 1:22 am
Sunday, June 20, 2010
i had been on a long leave since and going back to work yesterday was abit heavy. haha. i wouldn't say i did enjoy much of the privileges spent during my leave. i was either bumming, or bummming and... ohh! bummming.
my days had not been alright since whenever. yes and if it sounds as if i'm on an emotional breakdown, i actually have been with it. sadly i think it's hard for me to move on of what that has happened. sadly, i'm not much of that person who could freely forget things, move on and look what's ahead. i know the biggest mistakes in life is to ponder on something that has never worked out and will never work out. but i am like that. it takes me a long time to rebuild a foundation where i could really be on my feet again and reminisce parts of the chapters of my life that actually failed and be confident about it that it was all in the play of the game.
time after time i have been reminding myself regretting won't make any big difference if something really comes out of it. reality check; IT DOES NOT! and it is for real. this is something that bites you real hard.
this is my first off day today and honestly, getting through off days are the worse ever. it's the slowest.
i wish for my better times, i do.
green green green:)
at 2:34 pm
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
it was number after number when i pushed against my home phone to dial her number. it gave me alot of strength and courage to actually call her up.. i don't know. maybe i guess probably because i had to let it out my chest which i eventually did. i hope i feel much better at least? even if it was for that short conversation with her.
talking and hearing her voice was everything, really. i really do missed her. but that should be it, right? i mean nothing could be done, right? ...right? ...right?
:(
green green green:)
at 4:55 pm
Monday, June 14, 2010
what's the worth of having to think about something that isn't true?
what's the worth of having to think about someone that doesn't exist in you anymore?
i have been avoiding you. i have been trying everything to make me hate you. nothing worked. nothing really worked. nothing at all worked out. i know this means nothing blogging this entry out but if i had been keeping this to myself for long, my mind would go haywire. i know i have got no powers to do anything that was supposed to be done although i'm trying to keep this silly thought in my head that something that CAN and COULD be done... i know also that whatever that's typed out, wouldn't be read by you, definitely. as how this emotionally sounds, as tears roll down my cheeks. i just want all these go away or some what be resolved by any all means.
i don't want my time in my whole 1 year 10months in national service is full of crap. being heartbroken not only once, but twice. although i had met with new nice work superiors, supervisors and colleagues. i have never felt that complete in me. that having someone beside me like any other couples would have felt. well i thought i did when you were there, but it was gone. i don't think i'll ever have that achievement in me, not anytime soon i assume.
you won't even know this entry. you won't even be reading this....
green green green:)
at 11:02 pm
Saturday, June 12, 2010
money comes, money goes!
mummy's: checked!
misc bills: checked!
bike insurance: not settled.
road tax: not settled.
i'm left with 2 more to go and i'mma be stress-free.
green green green:)
at 10:50 pm
Wednesday, June 09, 2010
if you knew me well, you would definitely know that today would be the best day ever for myself. well, in weather wise exactly. :)
i came back home right after work, didn't had anything activities on. it was drizzling then. the droplets and the cool breeze that hit and brush against my nike sweater and my face was really calm, to me. i love rainy days without thunders and lightnings. usually, if i'd definitely spend my day with a special someone with me because it will be a waste spending my time sleeping all day long not enjoying the rain. walking in the rain would be so nice. :)
i'm still in the search for finding new job till i end my national service. looking for one is a pain in the ass. ugh.
ironically, i had a dream about what i thought again was so real to me. but i'm beginning to succumb to the reality that bites. dreams be dreams, we all know. let's not not expect it. i plan to roam around town tomorrow aimlessly because it has been a long time since i last stepped orchard road. i miss the whole vibe about looking at things you want and you want it on the spot. of course, you can't get it though. hahah.. i hope tomorrow's weather will be some what like today's. so that i can actually walk around with my nike sweater hood. i love the whole idea of wearing a jacket or a sweater when it cooling or raining in singapore. :) because when else can we actually don those?
it has been a cool windy day. i bid myself a good night.
green green green:)
at 12:00 am
Thursday, June 03, 2010
i signed up for standard chartered marathon for this coming december. if there was a such cause to run for, i'd run for the cause of running away from everything away from you inside my head. :) hopefully till december i'm still fit enough to run, and not look a like fucking big beachball!
green green green:)
at 11:35 pm
