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Thursday, November 26, 2009

something i wrote last night before i slept.

it always slipped right through me

it all started with a simple conversation
it lasted throughout with no hesitation
it got better by day
so it went well, i would say

things were going fine
and you were always on my mind
somehow something seem if it wasn't right
nope.. it wasn't because of the height

calm waters started to ripple
and i knew it was something terrible
everything seems like it was picture perfect
yet i felt something just lack

lack of afew things that could not be fulfilled
something like, i don't fit your bill
i have then realised reality check sucks
even though if you do believe in luck

then again i don't have my say
like how it seems you're so close yet so far away

whatever it will be
whatever the uncertainty
i'm just so here with you
you don't have to worry
coz you won't fall right through..

green green green:)
at 9:48 am

Monday, November 16, 2009

and so, the sausage fest in base has ended! boy was i glad to be out again! though it was only for 3, 4 days, it's boring coz all you is just standby. when i was in HTA, we had lots of things going on and hence time passed very fast then. this was nothing like it! i was either, sleeping, collecting food, sleeping. too tired to run, shit, sleep, eat, shit, sleep! laptop and psp was just a temporary entertainment!

anyhooos! pay is in and my wallet is loaded! but something tells me that it's going down the AXS and SAM machine. another half would go to my lovely bike! so there you go! serving the nation. you'll never feel like shopping! argh!

green green green:)
at 11:04 am

Monday, November 09, 2009

for this few days, i'm gonna be stuck in base. the reason is because the apec summit has started yesterday. but no worries, i have already equipped myself with my own laptop and psp to keep me occupied. OOHH just one more thing, i think every text from you would make me a happy boy each day :)

green green green:)
at 6:12 pm

Saturday, November 07, 2009

greenday is coming to singapore. i am planning to get tics
muse is coming to singapore as well. i hope i still have money left then to buy tics for muse! AHHHHHHH!

green green green:)
at 1:07 pm

Friday, November 06, 2009

soundtrack: peter pan - bintang disurga
this is for you.

it all started when we were young and naive. it all started when i first worked at the zoo. it all started when the warm fuzzy feeling and the butterflies in my stomach. you lifted me high up then. somewhere along the way, things were great, things we going smoothly. somewhere a year later i broke your heart for some stupid reason. i made up for my stupid mistake and you gave me a 2nd chance to prove myself wrong. i held you again there and we were unstoppable. but things got out of hands again. family matters arise and i mixed it in with you in it. which is not a good idea. i was going to be enlisted soon enough then. we were friends, close friends, very closed friends then. but our status was no longer in a relationship, stupid enough for me i chose that way. soon i was enlisted, though we were still contacting each other. somehow i'm not sure why you were always there for me, and me, i was blinded not to see that. 3months after i passed out from my basic police training and i was out of the academy. you were there to see my march pass. you were there with my family. you were there in my arms throughout that day. i was contented and happy that whole day! :) few days later after i noticed there has been silence from you since. i'm not sure why.. i thought it was nothing then. till i arise the question, what happened, what's going on? i knew something was not right then, and i know somehow i am losing you already. from then on.. i tried to fight back for what i thought i was losing.. and i thought i won.. but time wasn't on my side. it was bad enough for me already.. i wish none of these had happened.. till today you are still that someone on my mine.. and if there IS EVER is a chance, for once, i wished! i had hoped to ammend everything. i had always thought you were the one. but for now, i should be happy for you even though i know i can never stand another chance. i'll pray for the best for you. and i will admire you from afar. take care..

green green green:)
at 9:39 pm