Sunday, May 31, 2009
soundtrack: knock you down - keri hilson
somehow song and the lyrics are nice. i'll post up the video someday. keri hilson looks hot with a that short hair-do.
i just realised that serving your 2 years in national service, you really have little time spent with your family, friends, love ones--- IF YOU DO HAVE ONE! i can't believe i actually have till like next year august till i am done and over with. but if you look at it in a different way, it's a quite good remedy for those who're heartbroken and all. because you really don't have the time to be depressed and sad or anything that just brings your day down down down.
i don't know but as for me, i don't do much thinking unless when it's a sleepless night or on an off day, you'll start thinking all the sorrows and when it all sums up into a BIG BIG sorrows that clouds your mind. YOU'LL EITHER BURST INTO TEARS or burst into a LOUD SHOUT. i think somehow right, it helps. i was on riding on a highway like few days back. and it was a cold empty stretched road. it was at quite late at night and my mind started drifting away about think THAT COULD HAVE HAPPENED but what would have made it changed? something like that. AHHH let's just say i was thinking about her on the road, YES wrong timing. but yeah.. feelings are uncontrollable chey chey.. macam paham.. is there a such word uncontrollable? anyway, i was thinking about her and what could have been done. then i started to full throttle the bike and scream it off as loud as i could just to let all out!
i know stupid things you do sometimes to make you feel better. but hey! it works most of the times!
well work starts tomorrow. i'm on office shift the whole of next week. ANYONE wanna watch terminator?! :D
green green green:)at
10:50 pm
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
i don't know if you still read this crappy old blog.
i don't know why i went out with you today.
i don't know if i really bought the apartment,
would we be together?
i don't know if we ever did get back together,
does your brother and family hates me still?
i don't know if i have moved on,
but it has been 4 months i'm still stuck on you.
i don't know why i'm still not over you.
green green green:)at
11:57 pm
Friday, May 15, 2009
ohh my goddddd.
today's by far the most depressed day i have ever felt! i need to go out. i think i've become the most unpopular loser ever! this is not real. this is not REAL!
green green green:)at
6:30 pm
Sunday, May 03, 2009
WELL. so i did a reality check just now.
i realised i'm losing important things, people, stuff as times goes on.
- someone who had been with me for quite a long time
- my friends who really think that i'm just a BIG BIG DICKHEAD.
- myself
- appetite, sometimes.
- just basically the first 2 things that are really important to me. without them, i think i am no one, really.
- at least i still have my family, tearing up apart but still somehow surviving.
in better words, i'm really really messed up and screwed now. SHIT!
green green green:)at
11:12 pm
