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Wednesday, April 29, 2009

soundcheck: don't forget - demi lovato

i think demi lovato is hot on this music video.

so some updates;
- i just got to know how a big jerk off i am! always have been lah. no wonder i have no commitments in anything. that's nothing new actually. HAH!

- i just got to know that my patrolling duty starts when i get all my equipments ready. that means i have to wait for the other NSMEN to ORD! which probably takes about another month. that also means that i am going to be in that red vehicle for the next one month. i'll probably wear the beret inside the vehicle just to make myself happy.

- ns life is a killer.

- i want to enrole for driving this june hopefully. i might just take part time taxi driver if i'm desperate. times like these.

- i want to organize a birthday bash for myself this coming december to make myself feel like a happiest boy again. (PS, YOU GUYS AREN'T INVITED!)i'm also promising myself i'm getting the DSLR for my birthday, the long wait is over. i'm going to make myself happy, or happier? whichever.

- i can't wait for school to start. i'm also planning to invest on a new laptop and a printer. it's all for school. can't wait! :)

- i still can't move on. yes curse me all you want. but no matter how hard i tried, i'll still lead myself to a certain someone. but things just don't change, happen, or work like how we want them to be. i just hope for that one day if i could show what i have not been before. ohh fuck.

- life in technicolour II - coldplay. it's on my head.

- find me a financial planner? find me someone that i could do my arranging of clothes in my cupboard. really messed up here.

- i came up with something new about myself. "i have an ego, probably the size of your fridge. i ruin plans, like there's no today."

ok i need to go write my pocket book.

green green green:)
at 9:23 pm

Monday, April 27, 2009

Happy Birthday Mummy!

tomorrow she turns 55. i know someone's mother that shares the same birthday with my mother. we used to go shopping for presents for our mothers and it was fun. sadly, i didn't realised how fun it was until i lost that someone. moving on johan.

tommorrow i'm working for another 24hr shift and then i'll be standby on the next day for half day and that would be it.. i'm off. right now, i'm getting ready to go out with my family, i'm treating them to fishnco since i didn't get anything for my mother. i hope she likes it. :)

how i wish school life starts soon, i can't wait to be in a new school, new people, new course. 2011. here i come. ORD month, august. till then.. gotta start searching for jobs. but it's still a long way. i still have 1 year plus in the Special Ops Command base. and i'm proud to be part of them. i can't believe i am actually in it. the real thing. patrolling around.

green green green:)
at 7:04 pm

Thursday, April 23, 2009

soundcheck: hiding in the horrible weather - the american heart

promise me that i'll move on, alright?

it has been going on and on and i see no ending to it. i have been bringing it with me eversince i have left my 1st 3months trg in HTA. eversince the my passing out, i regretted my every day of my life, or what that could have been happened. the could have, would have, was all just making me pulling back and not moving on. i just think this finally has to go. because now that i see there's no returning, i really have to leave everything behind. burn them to ashes, let them be scattered away.

i saw you on facebook and i jammed for that minute. and the next minute, i started shouting in my head to leave you behind.

fuck i don't even know what my entry is.

green green green:)
at 7:37 pm

Sunday, April 19, 2009

SATURDAY
diarrhoea!
waited at home, plans cancelled.
got punk'd. feel like shit.
stayed and bummed at home.
late night ice longan and football match
late night text that leads to silly bets

SUNDAY
woke up feeling like shit
early morning with MTV
maggie mee goreng for breakfast
an ex calls that ruins the afternoon.
feeling like shit
feels like going out to shop
jamming session later ay 7pm
be back home to get ready for camp on monday.
feeling stressed up by midnight, route march on tuesday morning.

DON'T MY FUCKING LIFE BORE YOU?!

green green green:)
at 3:01 pm

Saturday, April 18, 2009

soundtrack: beautiful life - ace of base

well, it's not really a beautiful life. but i'm dancing to the beat of the song. anyway, i want to blog my wishlist up. hopefully i could get it by the end of the year. if everything goes well.

wishlist:
dslr d60/d80
new ipod video 80gb or 120gb
faded blue rockers jeans
macbeth red shoes
and to keep maintenance of my gilera.

that's all i ask for.

it's beautiful life, ohh ohh ohh ohh~
i just wanna be here beside you.

green green green:)
at 6:20 pm

Friday, April 17, 2009

i love this song! i wanna jam this song someday and sing with all my emo-ness. haha.

Thought I ran into you down on the street
Then it turned out to only be a dream
I made a point to burn all of the photographs
She went away and then I took a different path
I remember the face but I can't recall the name
Now I wonder how whatsername has been

Seems that she disappeared without a trace
Did she ever marry old what's his face?
I made a point to burn all of the photographs
She went away and then I took a different path
I remember the face but I can't recall the name
Now I wonder how whatsername has been

Remember, whatever
It seems like forever ago
Remember, whatever
It seems like forever ago
The regrets are useless
In my mind
She's in my head
I must confess
The regrets are useless
In my mind
She's in my head
From so long ago

And in the darkest night
If my memory serves me right
I'll never turn back time
Forgetting you, but not the time.

green green green:)
at 7:35 pm

Sunday, April 12, 2009

you know, if only my english was good and i mean way too good i'd like to become a journalist. i think it's nice writing past experience telling people. even better, magazine editor. woah, my name Mohd Johan Joffri WILL BE FAMOUS. HAHAHA! ok reality check.

it's a sunday, another boring one. the reason why journalist came to my idea was because i was watching confessions of a shopaholic and in a way, it kind of moveeeeedd me. but anyway, that show deserve 5 tasty popcorns! isla fisher looks stunning with her colourful expensive outfits. and that dude, he's good looking. noo i'm not gay but yeah.

another week starts tomorrow in queenstown base. no more residential but we're still sufffering. hopefully we'll all pass out with red berets on our heads. not looking looking forward though to the next and last route march. blisters and abrasions. DAMN IT!

i'm bumming at home today, bought a dvd ytd to entertain myself. anyone reading this now and plans to go out, please text me. i'm really bored myself as well!

green green green:)
at 9:59 am

Sunday, April 05, 2009

soundcheck: it's my life - no doubt

ohh dear dslr,
when i get my hands on you, which it won't be anytime soon but i swear i'll bring you around with me anywhere.

ohh dear gilera,
i'll try to take care of you. maintenance is my first priority to you. i'll keep you in good condition even if i'm in low of cash.

ohh dear ipod,
you've been faithful to me for coming 4 years now. i hope you'll spend more years to come with me. you've been a great help during my lonely train rides home. thank you.

some Obsession.

green green green:)
at 11:05 am

Thursday, April 02, 2009

op: hello, morning, soc ops room.
me: hello, my name is johan. i'm from troop 2, basic course. i'm reporting sick today.
op: ok, can i have your ic and which intake you're from?
me: blah blah blah...
op: ok, your sickness?
me: fever, flu.
op: ok, just keep us updated on the mc.
me: ok thanks.

so i reported sick this morning and i had to missed my classification shooting test. i'm not sure when will it be the next time i'll take it but i'm sure it's going to be a hectic week for me for the next 2 weeks during the advance course. yeap! tomorrow marks the end of the basic course for me, a total of 6 1/2 weeks and that means no more residential. next monday onwards, training is going to be office hours till 22nd april. after that, hopefully i'll passed out from both basic and advance course in one piece with a red beret on my head. that would be my pride now throughout my ns life.

let's just take a week at a time. i still have untie my knots of miseries and uncertainties that i have been putting them all into one and chucking them one corner. i guess this was all a test for me, i'm losing things that i wish i didn't had to. i'm falling sick, my face at the side of my cheek was burnt, i have to miss my shooting test, miss my ippt tomorrow.. hmm what else.. ohh my ipod is screwed, i lost someone who cares about me. oh well, to late to think about it now.

hmm so if this was all a test for me, i guess i'm doing good. i'm still surviving though i know depression sucks big time but it shows that we could still pull it through unless you just fall into doing stupid things, stupid things that people don't think about doing it. hmm no they do think about it but they won't do it because it's just stupid. well i pray that all of these will all come to a good end. i just want everything to fall to its place and i guess things will just go smoothly.

green green green:)
at 8:01 pm

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

when it all falls apart - the veronicas

i'm back home for just one night because i reported sick this morning. my whole body was aching and i was having high fever. lucky me our shooting test was postponed tomorrow. so i'll be back in camp tomorrow morning. i guess i'll be having my route march as well. ippt is this friday so i better rest well tonight and hopefully i'll be quite recovered by tomorrow.

this weekend's bbq might be cancelled. i need to check with my cousin if we're still looking for myself a bike. i also need to get my ipod fixed as well.

anyway, good night world.

green green green:)
at 9:17 pm