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Sunday, March 29, 2009

messed up needs planning.

i think everything is going a mess. my ipod is not doing good and i should send for servicing soon! or else 30gb of my life will just be erased just like that. first someone, then my ipod, what's next huh?!

i have to start running errands next week.
go send my ipod to apple care centre, i hope nothing will be wrong with it.
get my mother to cook stuff coz my friends planning bbq. really last minute.
go see bike, finally, but i'm still quite lost.

my mind's messed up. i have alot of things on my head. i think i'm stressing myself now!

i need to get my financial budget done alone now this time because i don't have her to help me out on this anymore. i should really start planning.

shit i think i'm really falling apart!

green green green:)
at 10:28 pm

Saturday, March 28, 2009

girl on queen street - plainsunset

i guessed mine would have been the girl at ben&jerry's.. hahaha.

i went for their gig today at substation and i was moved by that song. it was alright lah.. at least the day was spent well not bumming at home or being all so messed up and depressed.

and i thought wrong. i was on my way home and i looked myself in the reflection in the mrt window and asked myself have i actually moved on after this whole saga thingy? obviously the answer was i still have not moved on. i know i have gained nothing from what i have lost or anything and i know there's nothing i could do but live on, move on, stop being in misery.

but the thing is that if i could have the strength, i would have been moving on. but i guess i'm still not over the fact that i have actually lost someone so special and it hurts so bad. so bad sometimes that i would be so depressed that i have never been in that depression feeling before..

shit happens and we pick ourselves up for that moment and lift ourselves up. the next thing we know, we found ourselves the next moment we're falling flat again and that is how my life feels right now.

green green green:)
at 11:37 pm

Sunday, March 22, 2009

156 - mew

green green green:)
at 11:19 am

Friday, March 20, 2009

soundcheck: beautiful - akon
today's a book out day!

so some few mishaps happened during training in camp. i had training on wedneday at mandai camp where it was fun! walking through fire and everything went well. we had our tear gas experience inside this container, it's effing hot inside! PLUS with the chemical that irritates your skin.. POWER!

on that day itself, i got back to base after training with a burn on my right cheek after the fire confidence training. it was quite bad then but i think the skin looks pretty fine now.. i guess?

we'll see if i'm recovering lahh ahh

green green green:)
at 8:16 pm

Sunday, March 15, 2009

soundcheck:she spider - mew
every weekend passes and ends so fast. i barely feel like i am enjoying myself. i guess on my next few weekends, i want to go to the beach and just stone alot. every weekday in camp is slow and tough. taking each day slowly having ways to look forward to fridays, now i really realised NS is eating me alive. there's not much of fun and joy anymore because everything seemed to be so dull and slow.

i was watching mtv yesterday and they were showing the chart attack. i realised that mtv wasn't as it used to be where it's just full of music videos but now it's full of reality shows, nonsense reality shows and your tired and sick of. hahah. so anyway i watched britney's circus video and it's was number 1 on chart attack. in a way, she looks attractive still.

green green green:)
at 12:49 pm

Sunday, March 01, 2009

booking in tomorrow.
hell starts right after i enter the base.
the results for poly admission will be up on the 5th.
till then i'll at least have something to look forward to friday.

i know counting the days makes it feel longer.
but what the heck, i have 5 moe weeks.
i'll religiously update weekly on how many weeks left i have to be in hell camp. haha.

green green green:)
at 11:55 am