Talk Show On Mute

Saturday, January 31, 2009

frustration!

I've wronged your rights
I'm the black, not white
I'm the dragon, not your knight
I'm your darkest moments, not the light

Forgive me now, at least
I'll do anything, even if it's a kiss
Give me room to undo my mistakes, please
And I'll finally know what I have missed

Before I knew it, it was all gone like that
I wish I knew what I had
I never thought it will be this way
Never thought now you have your say
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part 2.

Find me a better place
So my thoughts can erase
Is this happening?
Should I run away from everything?

Be it far or near
Leave myself to wander
Let me find out what's been going
And what's been missing

All these while I've been in the comforting zone
I never thought that I'd be left alone
You bring me high up and lift me up the sky
And you let me go, head down first, WHY?!

You had always made my day
Like wise I had trusted you in every way
But it ends, like how you wanted it do be done
Like how I know you badly want

I'll never forget any of these
Minus the good ones, remembering the bad memories
Forgetting every single bit that has happened
I just can't take it, you've made my heart dampened

I guess this is how you had pictured it to be
With you and him, not you and me
Clueless as my thoughts are now
who cares, you've done a great show, now take a bow

writing my feelings out.

green green green:)
at 1:33 am

Thursday, January 29, 2009

soundcheck: follow - incubus

it has been the worse mornings that i have wake myself up to these days and i think i will be having that for quite some time. i will fall asleep late, very late that i would stare to the ceiling and listening to my clock on the wall ticking, counting the seconds till i fall asleep and wake up next morning feeling so wasted and draggy and useless and.. damn it! this could just go on and on till i pull myself up and drag myself to the living room and swtiched on my tele to mtv. the next thing you'll know it's that they will be playing songs with titles that are sad and heartbroken.

the only good thing that i have done is that, i got myself drown with alot of music and dvds. good dvds featuring live bands performance and music that will drift me away from this suffering, misery. since i still have on my holiday, i am planning to go the beach today alone and free my mind. it looks like the weather it's nice and good ready to go. the only thing that i'm bothered is why my mind tells me to go to the beach when you're all alone feeling so useless and wasted with nothing exciting to do. not sure if sitting under the coconut tree would really give me an inspiration to write my thoughts away. even so, would it be worth my time?

i can't be bothered. beach or anywhere else, as long as i'm away from my home i'll keep myself busy. i can't wait till i resume my training back. i got a feeling the training is a tough one and i'll probably die! which is a good deal to me!

green green green:)
at 9:59 am

Sunday, January 25, 2009

i finally realised that i have lost the word cherish. i had miused whatever that was given to me and i realised that i lost everything now. it's too late for this entry!

green green green:)
at 2:05 pm

Friday, January 09, 2009

just 2 more weeks and that will probably be the last of squad 50 doing almost everything together. we will all march our passing out parade as one on 22nd this month and all of us will be a full-pledged police man ready to catch criminal on the loose. probably just might find mas selamat? hahaha

it all happened so fast and i hope i'll get my posting where i wanted. this is the real world now. there's no more entertaining guests in the zoo, just handling paper works, guns, handcuffs, t-batons all in the blue uniform...

POP OHH!

green green green:)
at 9:54 pm