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Monday, September 29, 2008

soundcheck: one step at a time - jordin sparks

i really love the beat of this song and the music is nice. it shall be in my ipod as wellll. so i have been rotting at home and having late night meet ups here and there to catch with friends before i am enlisted to police. i actually woke up with a message from cmpb and it was a reminder that i will be enlisted on 7/10/08. :)

so lately, i've been complicating stuffs around me and the remedy was just to open up to people with advices. somehow it feels like you're comfortable keeping it to yourself but it just eats you up inside, waiting to burst out. hahaha. i'm sure all of us felt that way before. i guess right now, the things i should be worrying about now is more about of myself. yeah.

i am still having the investment plans on my mind;

dslr camera hopefully by end of the year
a gilera bike which i have been trying to get much information on

these 2 are very important because they're my own present for december.

all you people can start saving about other stuff if you're planning on getting me a present this december. :) but if you guys want to get what's on the list above. please, DON'T HESITATE!

green green green:)
at 9:04 pm

first this,
second that.
aiyoh.

itu taik punya pasal pun mahu gaduh ahh?

green green green:)
at 3:44 pm

Saturday, September 27, 2008

things just flew away like dust being blown away.
stupid johan, you're a dumb dumb. hah.
why did you bring yourself into a situation where you can't bring yourself up?
once again, i am for you to be laughed at. :)
why did i ever? :(

ok unfortunately blogger, you're the only place i could rant my thoughts to. everyone's asleep. so goodnight.

i'm really the dumb dumbass.

sleep me through this night so i can wake up tomorrow thinking this is just a dream.

green green green:)
at 1:31 am

Friday, September 26, 2008

so lazing at home is really not productive at all. i just finished halfway painting my whole hall with my friends and damnnnn it was tiring. hahhaha. a good milk tea to ease everything off of course. when you're fasting, anything with drinks. it's better than masturbation.

moving on. i've been youtubing for old music videos that were long gone!

so here are some of the marathon i had on youtube.

hhahahahhahaha!

KENTAL DAYS ARE NEVER DONE! I JUST WISH I AM BACK TO THOSE DAYS WHERE YOU THINK ABOUT ARE JUST, SCHOOL, HOCKEY, SLEEP, EAT, OOGLING AT GIRLS BUT SHY TO APPROACH THEM AND TUCK IN UNIFORM TILL MY WAY HOME, UNGLAM MOMENTS OF DROOLING INSIDE THE TRAIN! HAHAHAHA, SITTING ON SIDE OF THE TRAIN DOORS. WOOHOO.

green green green:)
at 1:55 am

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Yeah
Late night sex so wet and so tight.
I'll gas up the jet for you tonight and baby you can go wherever you like
I said you can go wherever you like
Yeah

yeah, keep on dreaming.

green green green:)
at 11:03 am

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

so it was the last day of work on the 22nd for both zoo and night safari. it has been a long run for me at the zoo and leaving it all behind on monday was so heavy. although i hate working there because of the stupid management, YEAH. i said it. the zoo has a fuckthup management and they don't give a shit about us and about what we do. to them job is thanked and appreciated just like that. YES I HAVE FINALLY LET IT OUT. SCREW ME IF THEY WANT TO FIND OUT WHY I AM BLOGGING ABOUT THIS. I HAVE BEEN KEEPING THIS EVER SINCE THE MANAGEMENT CHANGED.

i have about 3 weeks from now. till then i better make use of the teevee, my laptop. and download songs and get movies until my ipod is full.

green green green:)
at 11:37 am

Sunday, September 21, 2008

until i am ready to make decisions, i'll just stay behind the cocoon.

but i am not being selfish.

green green green:)
at 10:24 pm

Saturday, September 20, 2008

soundcheck: ria 89.7fm! hahaha.

i am currently listening to the malay radio station and i tell you, whenever it comes to dedications, the mak ciks have a list plan already on names to be mentioned on air. she'll make sure everyone in her family is included. hahaha. it's irritating because you can just hear them go on until the dj prompts them. irritating lah. go bake your kueh-muehs and let the dj play the raya songs.

work today was exhausting! the weather was a killer. i keep telling faiz i am going gone anytime soon. i was going to get myself probably a bottle of 100plus or just something soothing, cold. like ICE LEMON TEA. OHH MANN.. but in the end, i managed to pull through it. as a reward, i got myself a large ice lemon tea just for myself for buka.

after work, since we didn't had any plans going on tonight. we headed down to an nur for terawih and now here i am back home. tomorrow, i have another round of dying at work. trying to get my eyes off any cool water bottles or guests bringing bubble teas. ARGHH!!

what is the dress code for tuesday?
will everything just be okay?
my hair is a mess.
i won't know if i'll be at my best.

date with the night.

green green green:)
at 9:33 pm

Friday, September 19, 2008

sometimes you're up in the wee hours in the morning thinking about all the craps you've gone through and made, can you really amend those craps?

SHIT HAPPENS!

i'm beginning to hate that word after telling people that shit happens and they either have to clean it off, or be stuck in that pile of SHIT. PROBABLY JUST FALL IN THE SHIT PIT HOLE!

i think i'm probably falling into that pit hole.

throw me a rope. SAVE ME WILL YOU?

green green green:)
at 2:10 am

Sunday, September 14, 2008

i have officially signed up for my 3rd standard chartered marathon. this time it is the 21km. the reason why i chose 21km over 42km is because i can't wake up in the morning for the 42km. the run starts at 5.30am if i were to go for the 42k. so i decided 21km should be alright for now. i'll take a slow start. maybe my next marathon i'll be wearing that finisher of 41.195km t shirt.

i have not had my sleep yet since 7.30am. i came back home late till in the wee hours of morning watching 4bia. so i had only 2 hours of sleep and then back to work again. so now my head is spinning and i think my eyes are asking for mercy. i should be finding myself tugging under my blanket soon, right after i'm done with my sahur.

ok, food is ready. good night singapura.

green green green:)
at 12:13 am

Thursday, September 11, 2008

i think throughout my whole day today after my rest break, my head was blank and it had me filling me with the word insensitive. now that i have realised that i am, no wonder i never cared about things around me. even if it was at home. and the fact is that i was being compared with someone whom i don't even know, it is ridiculous. i don't like to be compared, i'm sure none of you would like it as well. be it good or bad, you just wanna be yourself. anyway, so the word, till now, is still circling my blank mind and shit, no wonder i cared about no one! woohoo!

argh so my day was already gone down the drain and it got worst after faiz told me something which made me regret so bad! SO BAD! HAHAHA! something which he should have told me a month ago! and now after knowing it. i can just fill it with regrets.

MENGAPA??????

NO I'M NOT EXAGGERATING! THIS IS FOR REAL. WHYYYYYYYYY.

green green green:)
at 11:29 pm

have you ever felt your knees were damn weak, your heart just fell into your stomach and your mind just went blank for that moment because you just got face to face with the girl you think she wouldn't want to talk to you anymore? i don't know, but i felt it. i'm confused. if she's not talking to me anymore then why was she talking to me just now? we don't talk like how we used to before. if only...

hmm.. can i run away and just sleep through this?

ANYWAY! I SHOULD BE LOOKING FORWARD TO MY ENLISTMENT. and am still planning on my investment list. i hope i will have the money in time to come.

green green green:)
at 12:05 am

Monday, September 08, 2008

green green green:)
at 1:55 pm

the feeling's fuckthup.

green green green:)
at 1:20 pm

Sunday, September 07, 2008

i guess the week has been a rough one and it shall be that way for quite some time. well if everything is for the best, then be it.

i want to run away from my thoughts again. send me to dreamland.

green green green:)
at 11:03 pm

Thursday, September 04, 2008

she is super hot and i'm super cold.
ok that's lame. BUT SHE'S ONE HOT STUFF.

green green green:)
at 12:44 am

Wednesday, September 03, 2008

it was not long till it rained like half an hour after i blogged about begging on raining just now. it was for the first time like my wish was answered. it was really a storm that sets in with thunder and lightning, loud ones. HAHAHAHAA. i'm sucha saddist.

HANIS! SORRY I FORGOT ABOUT YOUR BIRTHDAY. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY! YOU'RE CERTIFIED TO WATCH R21. WOOHOOO!

green green green:)
at 11:14 pm

DAY 3:

the heat is scorching and the clouds are moving away. my lips are dry and i'm having a huge migraine. here i am at the visitor service booth doing zoo memberships and repeating the same thing over and over again is not helping that i'm actually feeling dehydrated. <--- i got that right didn't i?

ohh dearly clouds, please stay in mandai area. let there be thunder and storm, let there be raining so i can rest and wait till the evening till it's time to break fast.

ohh man, i can believe i'm sneaking and blogging openly at the booth here and i am doing it quite well pretending that nothing actually happened. HAHAHAHAHA!

green green green:)
at 2:45 pm

Tuesday, September 02, 2008

soundcheck: don't raise your voice - force vomit

baybeats with force vomit was HELL YEAH! there's actually a whole load which i would want to blog about but i can't seem to start. when i can, i'll start.

in the meantime, like all past fasting season. i would like to wish all my muslim friends, SELAMAT BERPUASA!

green green green:)
at 10:20 pm