it started out as 42 people in a class. slowly, one by one lost their interest and carried on with serving the nation. and as for us, hopefully we will all graduate as a class. though some of us got some repeat modules here and there, we must show them we can do it.
the almost notorious class in mechatronics dept.
green green green:)
at 11:41 pm
it's so good to actually bum at home on a nice saturday afternoon. it's not that often i have this opportunity. i'm always working my ass on other weekends. right now if i'm working, i'll be having my break. after that, i'll get back to work, entertaining fuckthup guests that comes to the zoo and only fuck around with us, hopefully to get what they want.
i have to get readyf ro match later, i doubt i'll do any good in the team. but what the heck, i'm there to enjoy the game. not me being so uptight on warming the bench. besides, i've been warming the bench since i was in primary 6. what difference does it makes?
i have to decide after match if i'm going for the friendly soccer match arranged by the inter dept in the zoo or for a jamming session with my buddies that have been wanting to form a band eversince we were in secondary school. you know that's one thing bad about me. i like to put myself under pressure and never make decisions to get things right.
green green green:)
at 2:04 pm
Sunday, February 10, 2008
sometimes at one point of time, you tend to feel like you're useless, low and behold. i think that is what i'm having now. that feeling just creeps from behind and then it tells you you life is gone, dampened.
i realised throughout my whole life of playing hockey. i never once, NEVER started in the first 11. i was never an important role at any time of my life and i guess it looks like i'll never be. every weekends, i rush to work, i take a cab, i serve guests that never appreciates anything, i try to calm them down but i'll get so uptight, my hands starts to shiver and i tend to find to answer back to any reason what they are complaining about. i go to school on weekdays, i try to work my best to the top but i'm always around average or even worse below border line. on certain days where i have hockey trainings at night, i train like anyone else, but whenever it comes to games, i'll warm the bench. i pay $30 for every 3 months for the club for nothing.
is it me or is it just bad days like these?
green green green:)
at 11:41 pm
Thursday, February 07, 2008
soundcheck: the great escape - we are scientists
i suddenly missed going to HMV to find check out for new bands with my bunch of friends, well usually it'll be hanis, shafi.. trying to compare and check out for new bands, new hits, new songs. right now the only way to that is just songs being sent through a bluetooth from a handphone and it will be upload into the computer for storage. in other words, i missed being a teenager.
i just feel one day we could actually have our own day somewhere anywhere, by the beach, some coffee shop(starbucks or s11 kopitiam), shopping centre, overseas. but then again.. i must be dreaming. people like hanis, ahmad, shafi.. we should just go overseas on a weekend and let bad days be dazed. forget about everything till we're back on monday.
i just miss hanging out with friends eversince i'm so committed to work and school. i have no time for anything else, i don't even have time for sara! hahaha. it was our 2 years plus ytd or so if i'm right.. i don't hope much but we'll see what comes out of this. in a relationship, one is always better, smarter, higher than the other.. you know that kind of saying. and i think the one in this relationship should be her. i think i have not done the sweetest thing to her but she's always there to guide me through.
school;
i have about 5 more weeks in school. it's the toughest semester i would say. not only because of such modules but also time constrain. everything is soo packed with one another. we have a fyp deadline coming up and sadly to say, our group is barely there. we are supposed to make a sumo robot and we've only finished with the body. functionality, reports, circuit wiring, everything that is more important than the body, is not ready yet. that is how far and slow we are. on top of that i put myself on pressure with my fatigue-ness that is brought from work is making me lazy to drag and pull myself to school on most mornings. hahaha.
i will be working for the next 4 days and that includes today too. for both zoo and night safari. hopefully i can still finish up tutorials i've been keeping from teachers for the last few days.
and for now, i need to save the world. WOOOOOSSSSHHHHHHHH!
green green green:)
at 10:59 pm
