this is my family. we were the kryptonite and the black and white prisoner gang!yesterday everything felt so warm. it's good to be together, not like we're not together but just happy tears. okok let's not go further now. hmm yes yes, i know what you guys are thinking of when looking at the picture.. it's my father nostrils right??? ADMIT IT! i know lah it's almost the size of the north-south line MRT tunnel. it's not bad ok, it's just because he looked up when the camera is placed low enough. and nooo he doesn't have a flat nose, mind you, all in my family do not have flat noses.. but just excluding my niece and nephew. hahahahha. all in all, we looked great yesterday. i'm proud to have them. hidup mati lah!
green green green:)
at 11:14 pm
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
soundcheck: in the morning - razorlight
ok firstly, to all my muslim friends, Selamat Lebaran.. Selamat Hari Raya!
ok.. there are few new albums that has been out, the latest one was my chemical romance, yes i'm still into those kinda genre. it's cool ok? jet also released their album too recently! i need to get electrico's new album! and also the red jumpsuit apparatus. it's a power pack punk rock band, i think? they sound like amber pacific. it's a trip to the hmv soon enough. :D ohh and also a top my account up for my bike lessons. i need to get done with it soon! i'm already starting to dream of riding, cruising along the highway.. my way on the highway.
i just got back from visiting. it was nice, it's once every year. i felt so warm. i felt getting together is good. family gathering.... hahaha. i'm getting all emo now.
ohh ohh! jalan with the peeps!
31st oct, 1st nov, 2nd(probably) - outing with the zooriffic gang!
24th, 25th nov - outing with the 3 mats and 1/2! it's been a long time!
everything's going to be a blast! i hope the ending of 2006 would be great, memorable! especially on my birthday! soo hint hint people, start saving! i want an analog with digital 2 in 1 g-shock watch. i want a pair portable speakers for my ipod! i want to have a holiday with you guys! we go msia, thailand.. pick your choice man. don't worry, if it's travelling, i'll pay for my own travel fares.
and sara! you look gorgeous in the pink baju kurung! pink not my type lah, but it looks nice on you. really! hahaa random.
for me, well my family at least, we were the kryptonite gang man. we're the mean greens! well my sister and her family were black and white? prisoners! pictures will be up once i steal the pics from my sis! till then. stay rocking peeps. \m/ i use to do that symbol with my first ever few entries!
green green green:)
at 10:03 pm
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
it's so hard to please someone. don't you think so?
i never liked the word commitment.
i never liked being committed.
i can never commit myself to somehing,
unless it's suicidal, if i'm dumb enough.
i hate myself, i hate time. i wish i had 25hours with me.
too bad there's only 24 hours.
i can't plan anything.
i'm better off lazing around.
today was the second day of my school. see the time table i wrote down. it's quite tiring because most of my classes starts in the afternoon and ends late in the evening, like 6. the only good thing is that every friday, i don't have to go to school. yay! long weekend. i already hate time so much. it's like i can't get things organised but i have more then enough time. only that i'm lazing around.
the reason why i'm talking about time is because i can never juggle relationship and spending time with my friends or colleagues. don't ask further. it scares me.
i just wish everything would go like how fairy tales does. but i'm full of dreams, wishes and hopes anyway. oh well.
green green green:)
at 12:02 am
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
we were supposed to head to bedok simpang for break fast, but we ended up at bedok food centre, which is the other side of bedok simpang, bedok corner. the ironic part was that simpang means corner in malay too. damn it. anyway we took lots of picures!!! but sadly, shafi deleted the rest. so at least to make up the deleted photos, we took some crazy pictures inside the train, well not really crazy lah, just bodoh! hahhaa. mainly the whole outing was fun!
fit was trying to pose nicely, but my camera sucks. hahha.. so mind my camera.
this is damn gay! and i'm not gay!! note the word NOT!
green green green:)
at 1:44 pm
there was one time i tried to imagine how my life was going to be after my 2 years of ite and here it goes. i would go and serve the national service for another 2 years. i would finish serving ns till i'm about 22. then i'll go and take my diploma for 3 years. i would be 25 by then. going futher again for my NIE course it'll be another 4 years. i would be 29/30 then. by then only i have achieved my goals fully, as a teacher. a PE teacher to be exact. hahhhaha. i think i must get back to reality. i need to get my higher nitec done with first. then i could dream on the ns, diploma, nie, teacher, getting married, have children, grow old with someone special, die peacefully. ok...
green green green:)
at 11:31 am
Saturday, October 07, 2006
i guess this picture was the last ever that was taken from my 2003 year book. now, it's gone, it's either being recycled or it became rubbish somewhere here in singapore. yes, i got to know today that my mother threw my past school and club magazines. it's really really sad but it's no use now. i don't even know why i was crying. i just felt that hey, it's something i really treasure. but now it's gone, i can't blame my mother, what does she knows? but at the same time, i just feel pissed off and i don't want to talk to her. i hope i'll work things out, it's just me, i'm stubborn like an animal.i think?green green green:)
at 12:53 am
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
i went to check out my results this morning and i would say i was quite happy for it. i don't expect myself to do very well but the gpa point i have, i'm happy for it. i cannot be too happy about it because it's actually not enough to secure me to the poly route i want to go. i need to tell myself next semester is a new beginning. i am looking forward to it and i'll always do my best. i need to...
green green green:)
at 11:16 pm
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
i think i have finally decided that if i'm not activated for work tomorrow, i shall head down to nie for more enquiries about how to go about after getting a diploma(if i can do it, insyallah). i'm really having my thoughts set high of becoming a teacher and i shall not ruin that for now. so i shall make use of it and work hard for it, since i have yet to think of an alternative this should be my only hope. other than that, it's either to end up as an aircraft technician or if that cannot be achieved too then i'll be doomed! seriously, i've not set my thoughts far enough. i need that qualification anyway. or my last resort, would have to sign on for army. ahhhh! help i'm in distress. hmm well not for now but when i've finished and getting my certificates and such, i'll be lost in the open world. i wish myself all the best.
ok i need to bathe, i just got back from training. i can smell my feet stinks. ok..
green green green:)
at 11:51 pm
Sunday, October 01, 2006
soundtrack: jauh mimpiku - peter pan
i guess indonesian bands are quite hippie bunch. i think this song has the sad melodic blend in it and it's nice. it feels like you're sitting alone at an empty bus stop where it's just breezy and where traffic is not that heavy.
i just got back from work and it was hectic. they had the childrens' day special in the zoo so it was pretty chaos. the attendance today itself was about 7000plus max. and it gets better and better if you're bonding closer your your colleagues. not against the part timers just that i find that a small bunch of them are an irritating, egoistic, nonsensical, nuisance and cannot team up with them. well the others are the happening bunch. only that right now most of us are busy with school and other such committments we don't really have time for hang outs and night safari or a evening jog after working hours. YES! i have a round belly, one day if i'm free enough, i'll take a picture of it.
my results are about to be out soon probably this week or the following. i'm actually quite scared. i would want a get a decent 3.0 for my gpa but it'll be impossible. so at least a 2.8 would be enough for now. i'll push myself harder the next semester. hmm hockey season for the pol-ite is just around the corner. i'm training at my best, i want to get a first team to play for ite combined. i want to score at least one goal. just one! i know i'm already very unfit but my passion for it still is in me.. well mostly lah. i want to get prepared and i am doing it. i shall prove myself wrong that i'm unfit.
i just realised everyone has their sad stories. some are even worse than mine. i think good stuff comes and go. i'll make use of my time now and treasure everything, everyone in my life. especially parents. my mother, she's getting old and i can't bare to see it happen. not at the age of 18 turning 19. i'm not ready to accept this. i'm not a 30 year old man who's married and thinks that someday people would have to leave you. not me, i still need them. yes obviously you might be thinking why i'm talking nonsense. but there were some things that shocked me and when my mother told me afew stuff. i am not ready to write this out. but i still need her, not now. i'm not ready to accept the fact. i know someday you'll leave but not now. i want to grow old with you if possible, really.
ps. i'm sorry for all the times i've been rude to you, yelled at you, slammed the door on you, shouted at you, never listened to your advices, went against whatever you said. i've sinned alot. but i know sorries would be of no use. i won't quarrel much with my sister. i'll take care of you.. we will take care of you, promise.
love, your son.
i always thought i can run away from miseries. but i knew i'm wrong but yet stubborn. it just grows in me, sadly.
green green green:)
at 10:01 pm
