soundcheck: steadier footing - death cab for cutie
yesterday, i had an amazing thought lah. well to me at least. i like this writing alot alot alot. 2 thumbs up. i actually couldn't sleep so i wrote something and then.. it got me thinking that wouldn't it be nice if it really happened? ahhaa that picture was taken at hong kong. see the cramped up buildings? cool. anyway this picture reminds me of the poem somehow? hahaha.. hmm oh well enjoy reading.
lying on an open field
looking at the stars, i lie down still
i set my thoughts astray
i felt as if i was flying away
sitting under a coconut tree
listen to the wave that crashes, it sets me free
reminiscing about wonderful times
that will always be on my mind
i walk along the esplanade bay
as i sat and wait till the cold night turns to day
looking across at the bright city lights
it really get things out of my mind
the feeling was just so right.
i wish life was
green green green:)
at 12:56 pm
Friday, February 24, 2006
this is sad. i was called back for work tomorrow. i thought of going to jog, i need that get it out of my mind thingy. but i finish work at 6.30. by then it would have been quite dark. we'll see how. i'm afraid of the dark and jogging alone makes it worse. i need my famous amos cookies.
green green green:)
at 9:29 pm
Thursday, February 23, 2006
i need to find myself.
i need self indulgence. i've been doing alotof thinking lately. here comes the negative side of me again. i have not been religious and been in a good side with God lately. i must admit, i have been quite a sinful fellar. i really need Him. this suddenly struck me and it's scary. i'm not sure if i am still the same Johan. am i still me?
sigh. i have 2 more weeks till i know my results. i know my grades have been in a decending order ever since my first year in ite. everything changed alot. i don't remember me being such a baddy during my secondary school days. i remember i was chairman of my class for 2 years and i held responsibilities carefully. i even was offered to become a prefect but i chose not to. now i'm not putting all these up because i'm boasting but the way i see it myself. i'm really going down instead of going up. i also realised turning 18 last year was tough.. and it's going to get much more difficult. i realised i'm no longer some 17 year old boy listening to alot of Green Day and being abit of a rebel. things have changed and i guess they will keep changing.
it's weird. i don't want anything bad to happen. i just want to live life like how i've always used to. i want back my normal life even though there were lots of negative stuff but i always get to find a way out of it. but now it's worse. i don't like it at all. i guess for now, i would really want to find myself and seek Him which i'm not been doing lately.
green green green:)
at 9:59 pm
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
i just have to blog about this. my syiling espirit bag is gone! I'M NOT FUCKING SURE where was the last time i held it. fuck! i know it's not that valuable. but i guess i must have left it in the taxi on my way to work. i hate myself when i forget things. i forget alot of things. ALOT. shit. i hate myself. GONE LAH. i hate myself so bad. that bag is so hard to get and i always keep ALOT ALOT of syilings in it. what's worse coming next? HANDPHONE? HUH?? HUH?! HUHHHHH!
green green green:)
at 7:43 pm
such a blurry picture.green green green:)
at 12:30 am
Thursday, February 16, 2006
ok.. this is a photo of me taken on 1989/90. see i have proof that i have nice curly hair. and i don't even have to manage it i guess. but it is now all gone. GONE! GONE! i have straight fuzzy hair now! and the best part of all, i have white hairs sticking out of it! i wish my hair was that curly when i was 2 years plus.
thatwasrandombecauseiwasbored
but it's true!
ohh, by the way, that's my mother on the left hand side of the picture. followed by my sister beside her. beside me was my 2nd cousin. or that is how you relate it right?
on a lighter note. i will be starting to train back. :) i don't have to sit at home and laze and stone. i am not helping anyone. i think i could certify myself a useless BUM! i do nothing but laze around at home when there's no work. reminds me of the lyrics from Green Day - Longview. accept that part when he goes, smoking's my inspiration. okok random again.
green green green:)
at 10:23 pm
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
soundcheck: fighter - christina aguilera
ok so i didn't really manage to bring a scissors to cut the flowers, the balloon strings or the teddy bears head. i know it sounds that bad but yesterday was really infested with those irritating stuff. i don't know why but i don't think i celebrate this kinda occasion. maybe not now i guess. but yesterday's causeway point was crooooooowded i tell you. every restaurant was crowded ahh.
and so, O levels was out. and higher nitec registration are opened. i've made my choices. i chose 5 course which are in dover, simei and tampines. i have no assurance because my gpa are low. but i hope it's enough for me get in and realised i have to start pushing myself like how i did during my secondary school days. it's back to fun, happy, organised when it comes to studies and fun time. i need to push myself. i'll need to check the results on the 9th or march. till then. it's sit back and wait. and find where can you correct your mistakes but nothing can change it. it's just a wake up call to myself.
i must say i've been busy this few days and i have not got time for sara. i realised she's actually having trouble with the attachment because once maybe she's not really used to the environment yet. i should meet up with her someday. maybe a dinner and talk things out with her would make it better i hope. anyway, the medicine is really taking me on. i feel damn sleepy now. i'll blog some time soon.
P.S. my computer is going to be screwed soon. so bare with me if my next entry is quite late.
green green green:)
at 10:19 pm
Saturday, February 11, 2006
soundcheck: against all odd - the postal service
so i went out with sara just now. couldn't find much time with her because i'm working. s0 i wasn't working and asked her out to ikea to buy kind of a letter holder and off to suntec to watch fun with dick and jane. damn funny lah one part. should watch. i'd give 3 1/2 popcorns. anyway was at suntec looking for van shoes because when i went causeway point's royal sporting house, they told me that the shoes i wanted was transferred to suntec's royal sporting house. so i checked there and it was not there till i went to the why pay more outlet. it was part of a royal sporting house i guess but they're selling it cheaper. guess how much i got the shoes for? from $89 to $49.90. i also think it's damn simple man the shoes. this vans actually is to replace the one i bought before which has PIG LINING on it. damn one kind ahh. irritating man. and i got that pig lining shoes for $109. rrrrrrrrrippppp offffff!
ok i have work tomorrow. and i guess it was quite a long day for me. i need to sleep. tomorrow got bbq after work at the workplace itself. paid $8 for it. before that actually, i'm going jogging with mahendran after work. so probably we'll have bbq with our stinky selves.
green green green:)
at 11:58 pm
Friday, February 10, 2006
the postal service. enjoy..
sounds like you're into some nintendo game. ah hah! mario.
very melodic. wasted got no guitar. but that gameboy sound is melodic. hahahaha.
green green green:)
at 9:41 am
Monday, February 06, 2006
jack johnson - breakdown
i'm going through some massive shit lah.
ohh please just, let me please breakdown.
green green green:)
at 3:51 pm
i think this pic has a nice background? either ways i think she's lovely too.green green green:)
at 1:07 am
i'm bothered. but then? it's passed.
i'm done with bills anyway. thank goodness.
o levels will be out soon. that means ite higher nitec going to start open registration.
i'm really bothered!
i think i miss her.
we need to figure things out together.
ok. i need my sleeepp.
green green green:)
at 12:29 am
Friday, February 03, 2006
When im moody, i tend to throw my tantrums at him.
He tolerate me.
He understands why im like that.
At least gurls haf an excuse to be like that once a month.
I love everything about him.
lotsa love,
Sara
green green green:)
at 12:40 pm
Thursday, February 02, 2006
this is tiring. work sucks and i'm missing school so much. i see students in uniforms and me, going to work with my slippers, my cap, some t shirt, cargo shorts, my bag, my shoe bag. i hate work. i've been working since last thursday and my only rest was yesterday. lucky me i'm not working on friday and saturday. i hate work. i'm dead tired. i don't even have time for tv. sad. the only bright side i'm looking at it is money.
green green green:)
at 10:08 pm
